There were too many coincidences in between. At the start, she had misled Han Ruchu purely because she didn't want to marry Xu Jiamu.
She had never expected so many consequences though.
Subsequently, she thought that Qiao Anhao had fallen for Xu Jiamu and had desperately tried to keep Lu Jinnian away.
At that time, she thought that she was doing Qiao Anhao a favor, but in reality, she wasn't.
At the start it was just a simple mistake, but it escalated to a hideous crime.
Even she wasn't able to forgive herself, so how could she be able to garner enough courage to ask for forgiveness?
"Qiao Qiao, you don't have to be sad, even if something were to happen today, it’s an accident...and I owe it to you."