XXI

I looked around my room seeing my Two boyfriends beside me. I kissed both of their heads as I had classes so I went to take a shower still a bit sore from last night's events. Then putting on my outfit making sure to eat something so I walked to the kitchen grabbing a chocolate muffin and a bottle of apple juice.

I grabbed my bag and keys from near the doorway putting on my coat leaving out of the household.

I got in my car starting to drive while eating my breakfast. As I drove closer to my college campus I was thinking about how long my lecture would be and how my finger would cramp from trying to get as many notes as possible. Lucky I found a trick where I can record the lecture and my computer will write it for me. Despite that, I still want to take some on-hand notes because that's important to me at least it simple and easy for me at least.

Even if I get made fun of for my old-fashioned way of taking notes it's what I'm used to.

I arrive so I walked to my class getting there promptly sitting alone as the lecture started. It was long but I had good notes so I packed up all my things ready to go back home to my boys. I hurriedly got in the car locking my doors making sure I'm safe. I turned on my anime playlist listening to it when I suddenly felt really sad and kinda wanna cry.

I was home by this point and took off my shoes walking to the door. I smiled as I made it in placing my shoes down when I saw Cameron in the kitchen he looked up seeing me knowing I needed a hug so he opens his arms signaling me to come over to him. I walked over to him and hug him but when I got close enough he pulled me into his warm embrace I felt at that moment I could let everything out. I start to cry in his arms as we swayed in the kitchen I ranted about everything I was feeling as he just rubbed my back and listened.

I felt better after a while so I looked up at him ready to say thank you but he cut me off saying "You don't have to thank me I'm always here to listen to you" I nodded as he gently kissed my head continuing "Hey go take you a nice relaxing bath and change into something comfortable then I'll make you some hot chocolate and we could cuddle if you'd like.

I smiled nodding going to the bathroom taking off all my clothes running the water and putting in bubbles and let the oil diffuser run. The oil diffuser smoked out the comforting smells of lavender and lemon. As the warm bath water comforted my skin moving softly against me in small waves with my breaths.Slowed music playing in the background making me feel so calm and comfortable.

I smiled softly taking my time to wash my body of the sadness I felt to replace it with a calm feeling I get when I feel comfortable.

I finished my bath deciding to brush my teeth and put my thick curly hair into two poorly did braids tying them back afterward. I washed my face and brushed my teeth looking into the mirror thinking about my insecurities about how small my eyes were, about how I had a chubby tummy, about how my skin wasn't as clear as I wanted, how big my boobs were, about why my teeth weren't that white, how I had stretch marks, and more. I felt sad to know I looked like this made me feel bad about myself and all negative little thoughts filled my mind up with it's context as I dried off-putting on the warm oversized hoodie and shorts my boyfriend picked out for me.

I smiled walking out of the bedroom to see my boyfriends standing there with loving smiles and eyes.

I felt happy knowing I had them but it made me wonder why me. Why did they choose me out of all the pretty girls out there? I walked over to them asking "Why do you love me?"They continued smiling slightly as Asher responded "Well baby I love you because your such a beautiful individual and you have such a good heart. Plus you make me feel so welcomed and loved as well as how your smile lights up the room. The way you carry yourself is so stunning it's hard not to as you a beautiful brown-black woman who I love so much. As I could go on and on about how much I love you and how important you are to me but in all, I love you because you're you and no one else can be you." I looked up tearing up asking "Really you truly love me?"Tears rolling down my face as he wiped my tears away he said "Yes so you never have to question my love because I genuinely love you forever and always"

Cameron just looked like me and Asher talked sitting down when I turned to him he looked me in my eyes saying "Well I've loved you for years ever since I saw you and your smile in 5th grade. I admired your beautiful confidence and how you easily socialize and talked to everyone. As my interest in you was just based on that soon started to turn into romantic feelings even if I knew you didn't even know I existed at the time. All those times I got to see you up close and personal when you came running your the bleachers smiling to ask Ender who always refused to dance with you. To dance with you.I observed and love to admire you as I saw you just and dance around the gym. I loved seeing you dance around the gym asking anyone willing to dance with you always so happy and enthusiastic. I remember the first time I tried talking to you in 6th grade which was also my last day at that's school before I moved always. I was nervous and scared as you stood there waiting smiling not know who I was but still being nice anyway. When I got in front of you I was so nervous I couldn't even say anything so I ran away crying like an idiot as you looked so confused. I was upsetting because I choked up but I hope I'd have the chance to trying again. So when I met you in the park that night and you hurt yourself when you let me hold your hand. All the love I had for you hit me like a truck again I was happy to be with you and enjoyed every little moment we had together. So Aronaj Laine Miller I've loved you since I first met you which is why I'm so happy to have you and will forever love you."

I cried hugging him saying "Thanks Cameron Phillips I love you too and I'm so glad to have you."I felt Asher walking out as he brought off some of my favorite food such as fries and chicken tenders. I smiled kissing them both on the lips saying "Thank you idiots"

They nodded as we started eating quietly listening to the anime we were watching together as I heard them quietly rooting for their favorite characters they hope their favorite character lives. As we are watching the Danganronpa series having a feeling about who dies and lives. We soon finished our food so we cleaned up then we got in bed Cameron in my left and Asher on my right with me in the middle drifting to sleep as Asher was playing games on his switch and Cameron was listening to music on his phone soon it went black and I fell asleep.