Chapter 183 Self inflicted pain

Ichigo had decided.

He would step back from going inside the gate that might connect to his previous world for the moment.

That was because he could tell that the unknown being was there waiting for him.

'I could sense that it was as strong as Ophis'

If it was that strong. He won't be able to survive.

He survived the last time because something or someone had helped him.

Even though he really wanted to go to the past to help "them" he could not throw everything away in his current life.

There were many people who would miss him when he was gone.

"I need to be more stronger than gods"

Ichigo could achieve it if he set his heart on what he wanted. 

It may take time but he was confident that he could reach there.

"Papa, Grandpa said that Papa could connect this world to Papa's inner world but Papa had to do something about it first."

Ichigo nodded. He knew what he had to do.

"He is calling for me. I have to go now. Hana please protect Papa, Okay?"

Hana immediately nodded and she used her power to create a dome of flowers.

No one would be able to come near them without being poisoned with a hundred thousand kinds of poison.

She had learned many new poisons today.

"Don't worry Papa, Hana will protect Papa at all costs!"

Hana's cute determination made Ichigo feel at ease. His daughter was really cute, wasn't she?

(Hana's appearance was that of Lee Seol-ah from My daughter is the final boss)

Ichigo then forcefully entered his inner world. He was ready to face his Zanpakuto right now.

…

Inside ichigo's inner world.

A man with black hair and emotionless eyes was now soaking in the heavy rain while staring at the gloomy horizons.

In his hand there was a simple black katana. 

It looked ordinary but it was so sharp that the rain drop was split in half when they touched it.

"Finally, took you long enough to come here"

The sad man said to someone who appeared in the rain.

And It was Ichigo who just forcefully entered his inner world. 

He looked around his inner world to find it became something unrecognizable.

The rain eats away everything.

Fortunately, White, Zangetsu, Mizu-no-Renza, had protected Tama for him.

The tallest building was the only place that rain could not do anything to it.

"You seem to be emotionally attached to this illusion. You are still the same loser. How long do you think they will last?"

The sad man turned around to look at Ichigo.

Ichigo narrowed his eyes. The sad man's appearance was the same as him in his previous life.

The one who lost everything because everyone thought he was the Messiah reincarnated.

His parents even name him after the man.

His life that should be peaceful and alive had turned into hell.

They put the burden that is as heavy as the world on his shoulder.

He had no friends and no family to rely on.

He was alone in that world until "they" came to his life.

But it was like a fleeting cloud. They had gone because of him.

If they were not trying to help someone like him. They would not have to die in vain.

"Mikasa…Armin… they died because of you and you still dare to live your life. To be happy! Do you think you deserve it!"

The sky rambled when the name of the two were mentioned.

The memory of the two resurfacing and it made Ichigo's heart bleed in pain.

"I…"

The sad man didn't want to hear anything from him. He ran toward him and swung the katana at him aiming to end his life.

Ichigo dodged him easily.

The sad man was weak. He was even weaker than a normal human.

But somehow Ichigo could not dodge his attack as flesh wounds appeared on him every time the sad man wanted to attack him.

It was illogical but explainable.

This was just self inflicted pain.

"Die you worthless bastard!"

"You shouldn't have been borned"

"You liar!"

"Pretender!"

"Failure!"

All the insults that came out of the sad man's mouth were from the people around him.

Even from his father and mother who would be the one to comfort him.

They were not his safe zone but the one who caused him pain instead.

That was why he loved his parents in this world so much.

Because they were something he didn't have back then.

Ichigo stopped dodging as it was useless.

He then reflected. Why his Zanpakuto became his old self.

It was like he was shackled. And was tortured silently.

"Mikasa… Armin… what should I do…"

Ichigo felt sad. He didn't know what he should do to stop his soul from being consumed by grief. 

It was like he just lost them yesterday.

And when he was helpless fighting against himself.

Someone appeared with a bang.

"Stop whining like a little bitch King. Just beat the shit out of him already. Or do you want me to help you?"

White appeared and kicked the sad man in the face, sending him flying.

White had every right to interfere because he was also Ichigo.

Zangetsu also appeared by his side.

He sighed. He told White to stand still as it should be him to overcome this trail but who was he to stop him?

He was also Ichigo. The four was one from the beginning.

"You! This is my fight with him! You two are not allowed to interfere!"

"What are you going to do? Cry to your mama? Oh, I forgot that mama didn't like you haha."

So savage. He even had friendly fire at Ichigo.

But somehow it made Ichigo feel better.

Craze: Support me here www.p@treon.com/phelio and get 20 more chapter to read.