Chapter 394: inner voice

" No, it is not easy for me.... it has not been easy for me, I am really sorry for what I did to you... I am really sorry " Gavriel said as she took out her phone from her bag.

She pressed on the power button and slide down as the phone switched off.

Gavriel was surprisingly, he had not seen her with the phone she was holding " did Lorenzo also get you the phone you are holding? " He asked her out of curiosity.

Tina smiled as she raised the phone to her face " of course, he did some thing I would want any man who loves and care for me to do unlike you " she replied bluntly.

" And after all, you remember you had also said the words to me, you are sorry.. you did not mean it but then the worse happened, I might have been a fool to believe you then but today on this plane, sitting next to you, I promise you that I would believe nothing you tell me..... I will just maintain the boss and employee relationship because I have had a lot of your shit " Tina added.

' what is he trying to do making me feel akward, why do he always apologize and hurt me over again? does he really care now? Gavriel, I have missed you so bad, waking up with out seeing you was some that came to be part of me and then I ran in to Lorenzo, he has cared so well _he has done every thing I want a man to do for me....... I missed hearing your voice but then I found out that you had a terrible past and when I try to get closer to you, no matter what I do for you, I stayed night going through recipes that I was sure you would love but then they meant nothing, you could not even notice my effort to help draw you out of your past ' she said to her self as she rubbed her palms together nervously.

' in as much as I want to believe you, I just can't bring my self to do it.... I can not believe you. You have hurt me so much that all I want to do is try my best to love my self ' she added as she ran her fingers through her hair.

She took a deep breath " I will no longer do the stressful things I do for you at the office, I will just do my job as your assistant and that is it.... for God's sake I need my sanity " she blurted out.

Gavriel felt the need to rush to the rest room but then he could not because the plane was about to take off, he might probably go there after the take off.

He needed to take a quality fresh air because he was already suffocating, her words were suffocating him.

The fact he could hear her inner voice tore him apart, he could not tell exactly if it was her inner voice.