ch 2 " Beautiful "

I walked towards my dressing mirror and picked my lotion squeezing it in my hand then rubbed it on my arm pretending that she wasn't in the room as silence filled the thin space. " I thought you promised to forget about her " Anna voiced one of her thoughts breaking the silence . I couldn't help but internally roll my eyes at her statement.... honestly how can I forget someone I see everyday. "Yeah I might have said that but its hard " I sighed as my chest heaved a bit .. I have the urge to cry cause I felt helpless .. " You need a release". I stopped and thought about it a while before I replied "maybe" as I continued to rubbed my legs with lotion too. "yeah we are going out tonight" she squealed and clapping her hands like a kid , while I tied my hair in a bun , before walking to my closet looking for what to wear .

I racked my closet and finally settled for a black long sleeved shirt and mid thigh plaid skirt with sheer white stockings. "okay at what time? I asked removing the clothes from my closet . I placed them on the bed as I went to get my undies , I got a black bra and matching panties . " when you're done with your work just text me " I nodded and shooed her out of the room so I could wear my clothes .. she obliged but not giving me a kiss on the cheek as goodbye before storming out of the room leaving me alone .

I huffed and continued to get ready for my stupid day at work, in no time I have finished with everything and was smartly dressed in my work clothes.

I checked time on the phone and I have thirty minutes left which was a pretty long time but I didn't have any choice but to work for my living. I grabbed my essential and walked out of my apartment looking it. I didn't eat breakfast cause I didn't feel like eating . l strode down the stairs leading to the parking lot so I could get to my baby .

In no time I could see the sight of it , unharmed I cannot help but to sigh in relief as I walked to it. God knows how I love this car my Toyota corolla. I unlocked the doors and got in swiftly, I roared the car into life and drove to the nearest cafe so I can get my boss coffee or else she will be Moody and bitchy towards me .

After getting her coffee I drove to the company in no time and parked my car in its parking lot. I sighed getting out of the car with her coffee in hand as well as my purse , I didn't forget to lock my car as I walked away from it to the elevator that was only used by me and her . As I got into the elevator I could see the morning rising sun as the elevator were transparent made of glass . its was a spectacular ..... just as I imagined it to be. The elevator dinged as I walked out of it. This was the top floor why has only two office in it , ... mine and hers but her office took the biggest space... I walked to her office as my heartbeat increased a bit as I thought of the dream I had about her .. I stood outside , knocking alerting my presence before turning the knob entering in .. I walked in feeling my hands shaky a bit, glancing up to her who is furiously typing on her laptop. when I reached her desk , I placed the plastic cup on her desk then extending it towards her. "Good morning ma'am, here is your coffee . mastered up a smile as my heart beat against my rib cage fast

she looked up from her laptop with her jaw clenched as usual her hair straight give her a dark mysterious vibe , she extended back her chair before spreading her legs making me gulp.

She was wearing a black botton ups with three buttons opened matching with a black suit pant. she has silver rings on her fingers, at least they were five on each hand and black pearl earrings and had her hair in a man bun and a long silver chain around her neck.

Everything thing on her was perfect except from her heart ,

it was dark .

"It definitely not a good morning to me ,"Miss White " she spoke up gaining me attention as her eyes stared deep into mine making my heart skip a beat. My breath got caught in my throat as if she was looking at my soul. I squirmed under her gaze before breaking it , looking rather at her coffee seemingly interesting right now .

Her eyes were black and emotionless yet intruding at the same time. " why isn't good morning for you ma'am " I asked after along minutes of silence , which made me look stupid for trying to know why she was moody when I brought her coffee .

" It because of how you look Moss White "

she said making me wonder how I look as my chest tightened as her sharp words was tearing apart emotionally. I felt tears brimming at the sides of my eyes as I felt embarrassment wash throughout me ....maybe I look ugly before her..... "Ummm ma'am what do you mean ? I tried convincing myself that what I was thinking wasn't true , "how do I look ma'am, I rubbed the back of my head nervously as I convinced my self that I don't look bad at all.... maybe she is moo..

"like a slut ,a fucking needy slut that wanting to be fucked anytime surprising without change. .. My ears wormed for a brief second as every word tore through me in bids.

Just take a Look at how you're dressed " laila , you look like you're going to a bar early this morning.... I stared down at my clothes ,but they didn't seem bad to me , I guessed they were.

Realization hit me widely as I felt shamed of my self especially the way I look , tears threatened to fall but I didn't if it was because I was offended or just because of shame. l looked up and her eyes were roaming up and down my body.

I cleared my throat making her eyes meet mine before apologizing, " I'm sorry ma'am I won't wear something like this around her , that's all I will like to leave you for now"

she searched my eyes for a before nodding as a sign of approval.

I fixed my posture before I turned to leave trying to calm my self down before breaking down in front of her , but again she spoke up making me stop in my tracks

What now ?!