I can feel myself getting weaker. Every time I run away from my problems, I'm reminded of my cowardly nature. I do have a decent job after having went to college. However, I'm still living paycheck to paycheck. From the student loans to the cost of living, it's too much for a single person.
*Beep*Beep*
Aurora: Hey... We need to talk.
Aurora: I don't think we should be together anymore.... It's just not working.
Me: Okay, I understand..... You take care of yourself.
Aurora: That's all you have to say?! Your not gonna ask why? You won't even fight for us?!
Aurora: You run away from everything! Keep going this way and you'll hit a dead end eventually!
Me: I am aware. What can I say, I guess it's just in my nature.
Aurora: Sigh, you... your hopeless.
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Maybe this was for the best. I guess I'd rather be on this sinking ship by myself. She always had my back, and I know she genuinely cared about me. Welp, I probably won't find another one as good and loyal as that one.
I wish I can get the courage I had from when I was a kid. I miss those days when I was happy and I always smiled. The adult world... It's hard out here. My dreams, my ambition, my aspirations, they're all gone. The fire in my heart doesn't burn anymore.
I guess it more like I'm drowning, but then again I'm stuck too. I wonder how to explain this. Ah yes, the more accurate term would be is that I'm drowning in ice.