Chapter 18
What did I do? How could I share intimacy with my best friend? Was I going crazy? I am supposed to leave town as soon as possible, and now I was in bed with my best friend after having sucked him of, and allowing him to do the same to me. Where was my mind going? How would I be able to leave town now? There was no way that Chris would help me to get away and out of town now. He would want me to stay and be his boyfriend. And to top it all off, I’m not even sure that I am gay. Just because of what had happened doesn’t mean that I’m into guys all of a sudden. It was a moment of weakness. A moment of me just wanting to have someone close, someone that really loves me, beside me. There was only one word for what I felt, and that was regret.
Carefully, not wanting to wake Chris up I got out of bed, pulled on the boxers he had given to me the previous night and went in search of my own clothing that was still somewhere in the bathroom.