6 Chapter 6: Cosmic thing

Miracles's Pov

For the second time today, I was overcome by darkness.

I heard laughter soon after, giggles to be precise. It came from a little girl, she couldn't be more than five years old. She was barefooted and she was running…no, she was running after someone, a man with long black hair and in a white pants and white shirt.

He was laughing too. Something must have been amusing to both of them.

He slowed down so the little girl could catch him and she did.

Her laughter echoed once more. I was envious. I didn't know it was possible for someone to be that happy. I can't remember the last time I was that happy.

The man turned around and picked her up, he threw her in the air, so high up but the little girl wasn't scared. I think she knew he would catch her before she fell, how great a trust she had in him and he didn't disappoint her.

"Higher! Again!" She screamed in joy.

He did it again and just as he caught her, a woman took a photograph of them. She was holding a little boy's hand.

"Higher, Daddy…higher!"

For the last time, he threw her in the air and he caught her and placed her on his shoulder.

"Okay that's enough, bumblebee…you will get dizzy"

"No, I won't" she giggled again.

They started walking down the beach. She smiled to herself.

"Who's beautiful?!" The little girl yelled very loudly.

"Your mama is…she's so beautiful, I will love her till the end of time and after!" her father replied.

She clapped and cheered loudly. "Who is enchanting?!"

"Xavier is…he is my soul and I love him one million times ten!"

The boy giggled too.

"Who is the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world, Daddy?!" her eyes widened as she asked that question.

"You" he answered and kissed her nose. "You know why?"

"Because you are my daddy?" The little girl asked him.

"Yes but also you are my own little Miracle. I would die for you. You have my heart forever, baby girl"

"I love you, Daddy"

"I loved you first. I win"

It took me a while but I recognized that little laughing girl.

That girl is me…I used to be her.

I want to be her again.

I felt a slight touch on my forehead. Someone was touching me gently.

I opened my eyes. It was a dream…the best kind.

When I came to, I was in a car. A soft music was playing in the stereo and the air was clean and fresh.

I was lying on the backseat and Xav was driving.

"Hey"

"Hi, Xavier" I touched my forehead and it had been bandaged and taken care of.

"Thanks" I murmured.

He stopped the car by the side of the road and he turned to look at me.

Our resemblance was just enough you would know we were siblings yet we were different enough you would know we were…different, I guess.

He was tall with green eyes like me. His Roman nose and half-dome cheekbones sat above an oaken jaw.

His wrestler's shoulders were part of his burly physique. his eyes twinkled more whenever I am trying to get us into mischief or when he has to get us out of it.

He sat with this tensed posture that said everything he didn't want to say.

He didn't need to speak, I understood everything in his heart.

"I am sorry, Xav"

"Shut up. Just shut the fuck up, Miracle"

I was quiet for a few seconds.

"Do you hate me?" I asked him.

"Yes. Yes, I do"

"Xavier…"

"No! I said no!"

He got out and he went to sit by the trunk. It was like he needed a minute to calm down.

I went to him and I sat beside him. I didn't say anything, I mean what could I say that could lessen the betrayal and the pain he was feeling.

I didn't say anything and so he did.

"I am sorry I was a shitty sister, Xav" I tried to touch him but he moved away from my hand.

"You know how everyone says that mom and Dad were meant to be soulmates…and it would take a cosmic thing to break them apart? Well, it didn't take a cosmic thing…it took you saying all those awful things to Dad, to our father, Miracle…it took you leaving home and threatening to destroy our lives…"

"I didn't threaten…"

"Yes, you did!" He yelled at me. " You looked a man who has loved you all your life…someone who almost died for you, someone who left life as a crown prince because you couldn't handle life in the public to be a suburban Dad…you looked him in the eyes and you said if he came after you or got in-between you and that fool Steve, you would destroy…you would destroy me, wreck our family by telling the whole world we are not biologically his…"

"Xav…"

"No! You don't get to Xav your way out of this. No, you don't! We have a little sister, Miracle. Beetle didn't know this until she heard you say it! Mom and Dad was so busy falling apart, it fell on me to explain to our thirteen year old sister everything…every fucking thing!"

He took a deep shaky breath and he blinked back tears.

I watched him.

I didn't know how much he was holding in until right now.

"You were my best friend and I had to go through the worst time of my life without you" he exhaled again. "So, yeah…I hate you but as much as I hate you, I love you even more. I love you more than I hate you and I can't help it"

I placed my hand over his and I squeezed it gently. I moved closer and sat beside him and placed my head on his arm.

"Tell me everything. I'm here now, tell me every detail"

Xavier exhaled again. It seemed to be all he did.

"Mom took it the hardest and naturally, she took it out on Dad"