1 Prologue : The Unwanted Girl

Throughout my life, I've never fall in love. Yes, I've never fall in love or should I say that I'm a girl was in the most unwanted girl to be with. How can I denied it? Who want to be with a fat and ugly girl? In short, I'm the most unwanted girl ever. For 26 years of life, it was a total lie when I said that I've never crushed on guys. Well, it's a bunch of crushes should I say. But maybe, perhaps and probably because I'm kinda shows affection to all those crushes before, they all kept a very very very big distance with me.

I was cleaning my room. Want to get rid all the unused stuffs and all kind of trash. Then, I look at this one box. The box that I've kept for a long time. My crushes lists! I open the box. All the memories suddenly hit my mind. Then, I realized, so much of guys that I had my crush on but only three that affected me. They are:

1) Nam Ryudam

He's from my elementary school grade 4. He was transfered there as his father is a policeman. He's a hotties! He also a kind guy. I like his smile. Really makes me melt away just like an ice cream under a hot sun. He's good at Math and always teach me while I'm good in English. But after graduating elementary school, once again he need to transfer to Ilsan. He also make my heart said that, I will never fall for another guy. I will wait for you until you find me back one fine day.

2) Lee Yonghwa

I just like him. He got the charismatic looks in his eyes. If not, why should he be our class president. He's a cold guy but he really cared about others. People normally didn't see his cared side because he always did that in silent and without people realizing his help. Actually, I kinda like him before Ryudam transfered. But because of his cold side, I just 'dumped' him and try my luck on Ryudam.

3) Jung Haneul

This guy, I don't know how to describe him. The first day in high school, he really catched my attention. He loves musics and literature. One day, on the last day before summer break on our first year of high school, my friend dared me to told him about my feelings. I told him and he never respond to me until we graduated from high school. That's the moment I realized that I can never dated anyone and I make my own conclusion:

"There's a guy who really in front of our eyes, we like him, crush on him but he like to ignore us and there's a guy who didn't know our existence but can spread his love towards us. They are so far to be reach by our hands but they still keep on spreading their loves to us. They are the guys who we called as an idol."

That's when I started to learn about Super Junior. Went to part time work just to buy their new albums and their merchandises. Whenever they are on the magazines, I'll buy those magazines. Listen to their songs and my playlist was a bunch of their songs. I can like them in everyway I like and I'm happy with that. Ohh.., I forgot to tell my name. My name is Shin Y/N.