I Did Hurt Him

When we both reached the parking spot I remember my clothes and my all stuff are in Eric place.. my bike.. I can't just leave here..

" Stop.. " I stop him . When there is no one in parking lot..

" My stuff are in Eric place.. I have to go and grab all my stuff... you don't have to drop me.. I have bike.. I will go on my own.." I said to him.. it's best that he can go.. I will do it myself now all this..

" And we made already a deal.. so there is not backing out.. so you can trust me.." I assure him that I am in he's side..

" You still dont trust me than come in with me.. i don't mind.." I said to him. He stood there. And thinks.. I known he have to decide it what he have do to.. and I really tried.. hope he think fast so I can go fast and grab my stuff and leave as possible as fast..

" Fine you go. I am going to home.. I will called you.. " he said to me.. come closer to me. And kiss my forehead.. and leave me.. I waited for him to gone.. when he's car nowhere to sigh. I get deep relaxing breath. And than walk toward Eric place..

I don't know how all the react.. what I will tell them. Or what to do.. I don't know.. but one this I have to do.. and it's that change myself if this dirty clothes.. I hate all this stuff whom belongs to him.

When I reached Eric place. I get little bit relax.. I didn't know that I will be going to involve deeply in more mess.. I mean I try to solve all equation but I just to involve deeply in them. And cut get out from them.

When I enter Eric house.. there is no one in here.. it's little bit feel better that no one is here.. I am not in mood to face the right now.

Lot's of things are going on in my mind. I know if anyone can come to this time.. I sure that I will kill whoever is it..

I staright to Walk to upstairs to get my all stuff.. and try to get out from here ass possible as fast can I do..

When I reach the bedroom.. I first get some clothes for myself to wear.. to free this stupid dress. Who's i really hate this now looking myself in this Dress..

When I reached bathroom.. I remove all things. And get in shower. And relax myself to think something.. I mean lot's happened. And I am not happy. And I know that it will be happened.

I know that meeting him it's bad idea. I know that he will be do something like this. I know that.. but I didn't know that I have to face all this.

Yesterday I thought I will be free and little stressed less.. but dude.. see what happens.. now I don't want to face Justin.. now i don't want that he will come. And I have to leave all of them..

There is no backing out now..

You don't have to worry all will be already.. I keep telling myself. But I know it will never been already..

I did he know everything.. how he know our plan.. how he know about me this much..  how..

Getting long shower.. I grabbed towel and hide my body. And get out from this.. after that I wear normal clothes.. and I feel now little bit oky.

When I look at myself in mirror.. my skin is pale.. lot's of question in my mind. They keep eating me. I don't know he know everything. But whatever it is.. I have to careful.. or what just give it myself to him. And do what he wants me to do..

When turned around I see Eric standing there in end of the door. Waiting for me.. I look at him. And feel the tanstion.. I don't know what to talk to him. What to say. How to tell him or explain him. But another thing.. I remember what Stefan said to me..

Ignoring Eric.. I grabbed my phone's and my all stuff. And the dress I really want to throw up to the trash.. I just leave that dress.

Eric close over distance and stood front of me.. I know he want me to say or tell him what Happened.. I also opne my mouth to tell him. But nothing come out..

And why I have to tell him.. it's nothing to connect with him. Its my problem I wil face it by myself. I don't want him to pity me.

" What he said.." when I didn't say something he broke the silent. I looking at him. He's beautiful eyes.. bagged me to say something. Or waiting for me to opne my mouth. I really don't want to cry dont want him that how weak I mean..

I closed my eyes. And thinking all about this. What happened hours ago.. I have to take decision. And I have to tell him that.. how selfish. Or just helpless I am that. I can't help him. And get revange. I really hate myself right now. Looking those eyes..

" I have to go to academy.. it's getting late" I finally said showing hater look. I didn't show any emotions to him. It's best that do what stafen tell me to do.. there is no backing out now. He didn't give me any choice. Or did he..

" What he said Rose.." he said again.. coming little closer to me.. I just look away.. I don't know how to give him answer to this question.

" Nothing to you to know about.. " i finally snapped. I don't know but I have to do something so why know this..

" It is to know about.. how can you said like this.. " he yelled at me.. I never see Eric this little bit angry action..

Because you didn't know him better that's why.. my head said to me..

Right I don't know him. And I feel that I know him long time. I tell myself.

I never see Eric this angry. Even when we girl's are go against him for shopping. Damn it..

" Listen Eric.. just.. I am tried oky.. " I trying to said this to explain or convenience him. But he didn't listen.

" You listen to me.. when I asked something you have to answer that.. " he snapped me. And I jump he's suddhan action.. wow.. it's really something. Similar to Max.. or I don't know..

Now why the hell I am thinking about Max.

Fuck in all this thing I totally forget about him.

What Happened when he know that I am not in my drom.

It's better I will think about it later. And face this one who stood front of him.

" Fine you want to know.. than listen.. I change my mind.. I don't want to get revange with him." I yelled at him.  I see he's face.. I see he's eye's looking at me with how I back stab him. How I broke he's trust. How I just betrayed him..

" You also like your sister.. huh.. who just lost in he's charms and forgot all this.. how can I forget that you also part of her life.. how can I forget that.. I am so blind that you not like her.. but look at you.. what you did.. the same thing what your sister did with my brother.. I hate you.. can you hear me.. I fucking hate you.." he said to me.. and see he's red eyes. He literally stop himself to not cry front of me.. one more person hate me now.

Looking at him.. I feel like bitch.. I dont want to do this but gusse what. I did it.. I hate myself to.. I hate this to doing with him.. he think that I am also did what Ava did with he's dead Friend.. I don't know what he mean by that. But I feel hurt.. I just don't want to show him how he's words hurt me.. I didn't even say something to him.. and I just give him he's things to him.. but he didn't take.. he just walked away.. I don't know how to stop this or don't know what to do next..

I take all things in he's table.. and get out from her..

When I opened the door. I see all are standing there.. and looking at me to say something.. and looking at me with heter.. I know I deserved it.. I didn't say to them. And left Eric place..

Reaching my bike.. sitting comfortable i start my bike.. and way to go to academy..  I dont want to think anything.. i just want to just get myself little relax.. I don't know how to do it..

In my way.. I grabbed some drinks for me.. in my way to drom. And also get some sleeping pills for me.. because I know that I can't just sleep when lot's of going on in my mind..

When I parked the bike in parking lot. I see some shadow.. I know he never leave me alone.. he's man will be following me.

And here I am thinking that I finally free Dan's trapped.. I forget that what trapped Stafen did..

I have to avoid to do to the Eric place.. or anywhere.. but I also what to do some things.. when I know I wil no longer wil be this place..

Reaching my drom.. I get in and lock the door. And lay down to my bed..

My mind to much frustrating.. I can't just think straight.. and I know what will be relaxed me.

I open the box. Search where I take the lighter. And than take in my mouth and switch on the lighter. And that it.. I smoke it getting one seep.. when smoke enter in my lungs.. I feel exhausted.. after long time.. I try this.. after long time i use it.. I never thought that I will be again start to smoke.. but see where I am.. again broking all promise's and doing all this thing I never think that I will done this again..

What a day..

This last two days...

Lot's off things happen..

Never in my life.. I thing I wil be involved this deeply in this..

Well it's nothing to compare that what I did in past. But that time. I never hide for this. I just go on.. and create all mess to involve this.. but this time things change..

I have to I mean really want to get out this but things are just going to messing around and I just dont know how to get out this..

Why Stafen want me.. why he want me to join he's gang.. why he want to help me to kill Justin.. well it's great that he will helping me.. but why he want me to leave all this and join him. What he want..

It's not that my background that cool. I am not that reach people kid that he want me to use against everyone..

I already in blank to think about Max and here I am.. I am again stuck here there no one will be help me to get out of this..

I just can tell anyone to this stuff..

I have to do something.. to Telling anything to anyone and solve all this by myself. To hurting anyone..

I will get revange.. I will kill them. I will justice to Ava and Dean.. I will kill Justin and Stafen and Daniel.. I will kill all of them..

Whatever happens.. I am ready to now face all this.. I have to just plan it out how to just lead the way.. and show them.. that what I am capable to..

Just have to wait for tomorrow.. tomorrow star my all plan.. and play like they like to me to play.. they just think that I am toy.. what they said that I want to do.. than here I am..

I wil do what they want to do.. I give the chance to play me.. and use me.. to there own games..

But in the end.. I will give that that twice  and turn that they never think that happened than I will did like those of things..

They will regret it.. to play me.. to think that I will do what they want me.. they will regret all things..

To use me.. to blackmail me.. to use my weakness for there stanght.. to threatened me..

I will show them.. not in word's.. but my actions..

Ready to face me boys..

Ready to back fair your plans.

And ready to face your death wish..

Because this time.. you all going to be pay . And you all going to be lose . Not me..

Mark my words..