I had a dream about her

The feast lasted for many hours until the other guests went home already. The elders left few hours ago, so, the mentors, the Grigg family, and me are the only one left.

The adults are now drinking outside while Aunt and Mrs. Grigg are talking. We are now in the living room watching a movie. Adam cooked fries and opened some chips. I made some lemonades while Avah made some chicken lollipops. Maddy is also here but she seemed distant with all of us.

"Hey! You eat like a hyena, leave something for us too!" Avah scolded Adam who is munching fries now.

"I cooked this!" they are like cat and dog fighting over food.

I silenced them by putting chicken lollipops in their mouth. "You are so loud! We are watching here!" they both ate the chicken lollipops and kept quiet.

We finished watching the movie but the siblings are still hungry so they got the ice cream out of the fridge.

They gave us some and we ate quietly. We are not usually like this when it's just the three of us. But since Maddy is here, the atmosphere is awkward.

"I guess I'll just go check my parents outside" Maddy finally talked but she went out quickly.

We looked at Adam.

"What?" He asked when he noticed that we are staring at him. We pointed at Maddy's direction and told him to go.

"Why?" he asked confusedly.

Avah and I stood up and we drag him outside. "Talk to her" we both said and pushed him.

We laughed at him when he almost tripped.

"Does he have feelings for Maddy?" I asked Avah while we are watching them talk.

"I rarely see them talk but when they do, they are either 1 meter apart or they will just say hi and hello"

"Hmmm. He needs some help" I said and ate a spoonful of ice cream.

"I agree with you!" we just watched them silently.

Hours came by so fast and it is already 10 in the evening. I decided to go home and Adam accompanied me. We reached home fast since it is just few blocks away.

"Thankyou!" I told him

"Stay safe" he said and wave his hands. I waved back and closed the doors.

I took a quick warm shower and went to my bed to sleep.

I can't stop thinking about what John old me earlier. I just wish they are with me so I don't have to rely on other people's stories to know them more.

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I am back in the dark forest again. I looked around but I saw nothing but pitch black. I ran and walk and ran to find until I saw a bluish light not too far away.

I ran towards the light and cried for help. I stopped when I saw a figure of a woman caressing the- is that a phoenix?

I asked her to help me find the way out.

"What lies behind this darkness of ambiguity is a harsh reality. Are you prepared to witness the truth?" she said while still caressing the head of the phoenix. But it is not just a simple phoenix. Its body is a fire itself. The color of the flame is bluish but the woman seemed unharmed.

"What do you mean?" I don't have any idea of what she is talking about.

"If you are looking for a path, you must be aware of where you are heading" she kept on talking without facing me.

"Who are you?" I was so curious about her and whatever she is saying.

The phoenix is now gone and all that is left is me and the woman inside this dark forest. she slowly turned around and I almost fell to the ground when I saw her face.

No. It can't be.

A tear fell.

"Mom?" I said in a very small voice. I did not know if it reached her.

"Come here, my child" she said in a very sweet and calming voice that warmed my heart. She spread her arms as if telling me to hug her.

I ran towards her while crying. But I cannot reach her. It's like something is keeping us away from each other.

"Mom!" I helplessly cried and reached her hands.

"Freya…" I tried everything to reach her. I extended my hands so I could touch her. Bu she suddenly vanished.

"Mom!" I looked around and tried to look for her.

"Mom? Where are you?" I ran again trying to find her but I failed.

I fell to the ground and cried helplessly.

I saw my mom! And when I'm about to reach her, she vanished. Why? I just want to be with her… be with them!

"Why?" I asked and cried again. Why is this happening to me?

Then I opened my eyes. I was just dreaming. But there are tears in my face.

I hugged my pillow and cried again. My heart is throbbing in pain. I covered myself with my blanket and let all the pain flow through my tears.

Morning came and my eyes are swollen. I cried the whole night so my head feels so heavy and it want to explode.

I went downstairs and made myself a hot chocolate drink. We don't have training during Sundays and the other trainees are in-charge of the borders.

I don't even think if I can face them in this situation.

I went to the library room to enjoy the view of the river. I need refreshment right now. I had a break down last night because of the dream I had and I just want to stay at home and think about things.

"There you are" I turned around and saw Adam.

"Why?" I asked.

"Mom invited you to have breakfast with us."

"Uhm…" I hesitated. I want to stay here just for this day.

"But it's fine if you don't want to"

"Really?"

"Yes, of course." He smiled so I smiled back.

He went to my direction and sat with me while staring at the river where we had picnic last time.

"Whatever you are going through right now, you will be fine." He suddenly said.

He noticed. Of course. I am always bubbly and cheerful and a little bit ill-tempered sometimes but I am gloomy today.

"I had a dream about her" I said in a small voice trying to hide the sob.

"Your mom?" he asked and I nod.

He just hugged me and let me cry in his shoulders.

"We are always here for you. Your big brother will always be here." I chuckled at what he said.

"You? Big brother?" I kid.

"Why?"

We just laughed together.

"Thank you" I sincerely said while wiping my tears.

"No problem. I got to go!" he said and left.

Few minutes later, I decided to go downstairs and cook breakfast for myself. I went to the living room and watched some movies while eating potato chips.

Someone knocked on my door so I went to open it.

"John! What brought you here?" I asked.

"We have a mission for you" he said. My eyes widened.

"Really?"

"Yes. Here" he gave me an envelope and I opened it.

"Since you already have a record on the outside world, you no longer have to hide your identity out there. You can use your real name. You will stay there for two days and we already booked a hotel for you. Here." He pointed something in the paper.

"That is the address of the hotel. And here…" he handed me another envelope but it is smaller and more secured than the other one.

"This is your mission. It is a bit personal but you have no choice." Personal? Why?

"You will leave tomorrow morning. Dan will pick you up here and send you outside. A cab will be waiting for you and you will be sent to your hotel." He explained. "And one more thing…" he said and leaned forward. "Don't trust anyone aside from me and the Shaw family" he whispered.

"What is happening here, John?" I asked him curiously.

"I can't say it here. Just promise me that you won't trust anyone"

"Yes. Sure." I answered.

What does he mean by that? Does anyone want to harm me here?

He already left the house but I am still bothered with what he said.

My mission is to find the person on the picture that John gave me. There are places that was written on the paper so I think these are the possible places he might be staying at. The mission only stated that I only have to find where he is and take a picture of the location and come back right after.

I started packing my things. Good thing Aunt gave me clothes and other things I can use outside. I went to the library room to get something.

"I don't know if I can use you but I want you to be with me" I said and took the necklace outside the box and wore it.