CHAPTER 1

BEAUTIFUL

University,I think is great with zero restrictions and freedom to choose.The fact that we get to live our lives however we want doesn't mean pain is far away,Pain exist with us,It comes crawling under our feet messing with every inch of our being.

Pain is dangerous though sometimes it helps leads us to the write path,a frozen heart knows no pain,but are we really sure about that,discovery have shown Cleary that for a heart to be frozen pain must first take over,the human heart survives on emotions,I can even say it feeds on it,every emotion anger,hate,sadness,regret,guilt,Joy,love,pain and the others all lined in a pattern.

What I'll speak about today is love and it's pattern with pain

Hello every one,My name is Jake Paker and this is my story

As I said before love and pain,the master and it's dangerious friend.I was in my final year at Hope university when it finally caught up with me,I never liked living among the others in a room,so as rich as I was and still I'm, rented a nice apartment for my self in the school.The perfect apartment with everything,bathroom,kitchen,living room,bedroom.Oh God I got to admit life was great,I was single have always been,you know I had this self created motor since Junior High,Single and Free,My numerous friends always advised me on how to find love blah blah bla.I could remember back at fifth grade,I withness the most horrible scene,some one stood in front of the middle of the road just for him to get knock out by a car,it happened infront of me,I can still see the images moving in my head,disturbing my sleep,It was discovered that he was heartbroken,his girlfriend had broken up with him and he was left with madness,he had drank too much liquor which would have killed him anyway.I sworn not to ever let a girl lead me to my death,the scene was so horrible that I had to throw up everytime I remember it.The corpse layed on the street covered with blood.I wasn't gay though some of my friends believed that but still I wasn't thinking of getting a girl either.My heart wasn't frozen,but locked away in chains under what I usually call it the deepest ocean in the world.I was so confident of my achievement but I knew deep down I was afraid that some one somewhere will one day break those chains.Dont say that,some one will take over that frozen heart of yours,one of my friends said and I could see he was anoyed because I was boosting on how I have maintain my life without love.I called him love specialist,he always liked to try and sink the idea of love in my head always but I got to give it up to him,he nearly succeeded ones when he hooked me up with a beautiful damsel.Well talk about that later now it all began one morning when I heard a knock on my door.It was Sunday and I wondered who it could be,or could it be love specialist,I thought.I had just finish brushing my teeth and was ready to take my bath.You can imagine what I was wearing,a Barcelona jersey and a tight underpants.Coming..,I heard my self say as I drew closer to the door and gave the handle a swing,Good morning,a beautiful girl greeted as I found myself frozen unable to move an inch.I stared at her with a weird smile which found it way on my face."Mr Jake Paker....,she called out which gave me control over my self.Come in..,I moved the door backwards and said with my head bent down.What is happening to me,come on Jake come on,snap out of it snap.. ...,I mingled with my self in thought as she walked through the room and made herself comfortable in my only sofa which I placed in the middle of the living room accompanying it with a wooden table which supported a flower jar.She had this amazing smile on her face which made my mind to heat up.I'll be back,I assured her and she gave me a nod well I think she did cause I didn't want to look at her charming face which was affecting my brain in a way.I entered my dressing room and slammed the door behind me.I pinched my body against the door as I began to take a deep breath.No,no,no,no...what's happening...did I just freeze...how can I....I won't accept this and besides...she's not that beautiful...who am I kidding...she was hot and that was what I feared....If I recall she was wearing a red dress,a straight one which reached on top of her knees and her hair black as night fall with those beautiful eye balls serving as the stars,her face was perfect which got me wondering where she came from,her mouth was in perfect shape and the nose too pointed but perfect shape....Is she an angel

..oh God what am I thinking..Wake up Jake wake up....!!I slapped my self as I was thinking of her too much...Is every thing alright mr Paker...I heard her ask from behind the door.oh she heard me...everything is great..I heard my self say and started to smile again after I replied her..why I'm I smiling...OK I won't fall for this,I know someone set me up but I'll prove to them that I'm strong..I assured my self and I reached for a black trouser and went back to the leaving room.I tried to avoid her gaze as my gaze was directed downwards.I found myself a wooden chair and relaxed on it still with my gaze downwards.I expected her to speak after along silence from me,I could see she was staring at me and if I could guess correctly she was wondering why I was quiet.May be my reaction was new and straight to her....or ...oh God enough with this madness..I said to my self as I slowly lifted my head,directing my gaze to her.Hmmmm....Do you need anything..my mouth muttered out which wasn't what I wanted to say,my body started to behave differently,out of my control...what is this woman doing to me...how can a smile from her..heat up my cells like that l...she was driving me crazy and it felt some how cool.She kept quiet as she stood up from her seat and came closer to me."Mr Paker I..."I watched her say but she stoped as she covered her nose and started coughing..I watched as she layed on the floor trying to breath."oh God she is asthmatic but how...oh God I couldn't even recall when I showered my self in perfume,what is wrong with me this morning.I drew closer to her feeling a sharp pain upon seeing her in that condition.Wait..wait...what should I do ..what should I...I found my self in a dilema but something told me to take her to the schools clinic.Oh but how...I stood still not knowing how to get her to the clinic..The only option was to Carry her which felt awkward and weird,I had never carried a girl before and I wasn't planning on doing it either.But I had no choice she wa dying and I can't let my stupid life achievement kill a soul...a beautiful one to be clear..I struggled but God being so good I found myself carrying her in my arms.I moved as fast as I can,I could see people staring but I didn't. mind as I rushed her to the clinic...the nurses gave me a hand the moment I entered the clinic.I stood there as they moved her to a room on the bed with wheels.I never knew what they call those things so I named it Bed with wheels.