Chapter 7 Tears

My body was in shock.

I couldn't stop the silent tears that ran down my cheek as my mind tried to process what just happened. Three hours of pain. I know this because after the first hour he made me count the seconds.

I felt his weight lift from me and yet I still couldn't stop shaking. Everything was on fire.

I watch with blurry eyes as he stands up at the side of the oval-shaped bed. looking down on me with glowing green eyes. He has passed his judgment on me.

There is no regret written on his face. Just simple curiosity. As if he's trying to predict my next move like I'm some wild creature in his makeshift science lab.

He sees me watching him and his mouth curls into a fond smile.

It's at that moment I realized how evil he truly is. My instincts were right the first time.

he was a monster.

The false sense of security he gives off is merely a pretense.

It's all a mind game and I'm some experiment.

his words flash in my mind.

("Humans who touch dark matter will die immediately. However, you didn't. You survived. which is why I find you so interesting.")

I'm like a toy to him and he's trying to figure me out. He'll kill me or discard me the moment he does.

I turned away from him. The sight of him sickens me and fills me with fear. I want nothing more than to disappear.

I suppose he realized how emotionally unstable I was. I was at the edge of another breakdown. The Zakerian dims the lights in the room and everything becomes dark.

Go to sleep. That's his message.

The moment he leaves the room I let myself cry. Cry for the pain I had felt and the situation I'm in. I cried for Lucy and my freedom that's been stripped away. Shadow stood there and watched me from the corner of the room as I came undone.

The next day I woke up and wiped away my pathetic tears. Crying will get me nowhere but staying in this room won't help me either.

He said we're in the north pole therefore I can't just run out of this ship I'd be stranded on the ice. I must find the control room and maybe I can figure something out.

Who was I kidding? How can I command an alien ship? I barely learned how to drive when I was younger.

I realized my plans are naive and extremely stupid but then I think back to yesterday.

How he pushed me against the bed and hurt me from the inside. How he made me count the seconds while I screamed and cried.

how he smiled.

It all rushes back and fear takes over. I don't want to be here when he returns.

It's time for dinner so I know Shadow is about to leave. If I leave this room I'll freeze to death. Yet if I stay I'll suffer in his hands.

I saw a shadow walk towards the wall and the invisible door opened.

I decided then that I'd rather die than give the Zakerian the sadistic satisfaction of keeping me as a slave. As his experiment.

The moment shadow stepped out I slipped out of the room as well. I was immediately hit by the cold my body starting to freeze.

I took off running as fast as my body would let me. I looked back to see shadows figure, his headlight eyes blinking at me not knowing if he should follow.

one hour.

I have one hour till my heart stops and one hour to find the control panel to escape. If not then I shall die and I'll welcome it because I know I did everything I could.

This was a foolish idea but God forbid I never want to see that Zakerian ever again.