Comfort
' If I then look back,
amid the setting sun
I wonder if you'd be looking
back to where I was at your side
The trees along the hill,
cast shadow in their way
Warning the time that has now,
come their final farewell
The old chapel and the
broken weather vane
Will they still be remembered
then, or simply thrown away '
"That's a nice song" I said while clapping my small hands as the song stop
I'm smiling widely standing in the wide music room of our house. And a pretty lady turn around and look at me. She's playing the piano, though I'm too young that time the melody she made, is too beautiful to be ignore that's why I'm smiling adorably and brightly while eyeing at her.
"Hi there little girl, who are you?" She said with a smile and walk towards me
I blink my eyes as I look at her eyes. They were wonderful and fascinating and somehow I'm seeing myself to her.
"I'm my father's daughter. Do you know my father? Mommy said he's handsome" I bubbly said sounding so proud with the fact that 'I'm my father's daughter'
She laughed a little and lean in front of me as she level her head to me. She fix the mess on my dress and wipe the tears on my cheeks so I bit my small lips.
"Did you cry?" She ask
I immediately shake my head.
"No. I'm just pretty" I abruptly replied
A small laughed escape from her lips again but I just stared at her. She's pretty too but I'm much prettier compared to her.
"So what's you're name little girl?" she said smiling but curious with my identity
Maybe because I'm pretty that's why she's asking?
"I call myself beautiful, but they mostly call me Seniorita" I honestly replied while blinking
She laugh again which I don't understand why.
"So what are you playing? It sounds nice" I ask and walk towards the big piano that own by my Abuela
She rarely visit us and that's kinda sad. But I'm happy because she visit us today though she always stay here, in the music room.
"Summer of Goodbyes. Your Abuela's favorite song"
I lift my head and curiously look at her. Abuela's favorite song?
"It's beautiful but it sound sad. Abuela likes sad songs?"
"You're a curious little girl. Do you want me to play it for you?" She offered
"My sister like this song too. She actually looks like you" She added smiling so gently to me
My forehead creased and I touch my face with my both hands.
"She's pretty like me? Lucky her, we have the same face"
She giggle before she sit on the single couch in front of the piano. She let me sit beside her and I play with my feet as she lift me on the floor.
"I don't like sad songs, but you play it too well so I'll listen" I told her and crossed my arm
She smile and she move her fingers to touch every pile of the piano filling my innocent mind with melody full of melancholy.
' My love of yesterday
nothing remains but tears
That will soonly dry out
and disappear
My love of tomorrow
a mid-brief-fade-away
Echoes on, somewhere far
from today
If we should meet again
amid the setting sun
I wonder if you'd remember me
and hold me by your side '
"Are you sad?" I whisper while staring at her face
She look said... She stop playing the song and shook her head.
"Yes, because my sister is sad everytime she's playing this song"
My forehead creased. That's weird.
"Why she's sad? If you don't want to see her sad then don't let her play the song" I smartly replied
She pinched my cheeks so I slightly make face. Mom will be mad again once she saw me talking to someone again. But she's nice and wonderful so I guess that's okay.
"You see? I'm still pretty and not sad though Mom just scolded me a while ago" I told her
She smile lightly and caressed my hair.
"She's sad because the person she loves the most left her. As well as your Abuela, your Abuelo left her right?"
I shake my head while pouting my lips. She's wrong! Very wrong.
"My Abuelo didn't do that" I remark
"He didn't left us, he just move in heaven and heaven is quite far so he's having hard time visiting us" I explain and she burst out laughing
Why she's laughing?!
Suddenly everything gets blur. The lady disappear on the thin air. And the next thing happen changes so fast. I just found myself running in no particular direction. I'm running away from that man, from my nightmare. The rain is heavy and the road is also muddy because of the rain. The rain is blinding and the cold night breeze is making me weak.
The comfortable feeling a while ago changes into something fearing. I'm scared... I'm cold, tired and frighten.
"Mommy..." I whisper hoping someone could hear me
But just like how smoke fade into the thin air, I lost my consciousness as the darkness swallow me slowly and the single hope that I'm holding fades away silently.
****
"Cami!! Damn it! What the fuck are you doing?!"
I back to my senses when someone grabbed my arm harshly. Everything fades away, the song, my nightmare and fear as I felt a warmth hand holding my arm firmly not wanting to let me go.
With heavy breath I lift my head I turn around to meet it's gazed. His deep soulful charcoal eyes is looking at me intently, full of this unknown emotions that I can't name. Suddenly, an urge of wanting to hugged him and to seek for comfort, warmth and love crawl into my system.
"Damn" he cursed and immediately cover me with his jacket
His well defined jaw is clenching intensely and his eyebrow are furrowed. I wanted to ask him a lot of questions but there's no word coming out from my mouth and all I did is to look at him.
I silently cry seeing the concern look on his charcoal eyes as I felt the raindrops stream down on my face. He hissed a series of curses again before he pulled me closer to him and gently cupped my face.
"You're not hurt aren't you? Fuck ! Damn it! Don't do it again Cami! You fucking made my legs shake and I almosr die in heart attack" he burst out with heavy breath
I don't know what he's talking about, but I'm too tired to ask him.
"Don't do it again. Damn... I was so worried" he hissed
He hold my wrist tightly in a gentle manner as he pulled me to walk. And then I just found myself sitting on the passenger seat of his car.
"Use this, you might get sick" he said and handed me a white shirt
Probably his shirt. Without a word I accept it and I look at outside the car windown. I just notice that we were just in front of the university. I block out again, I lost track to myself. But I'm a little bit calm now...
I don't know how I manage to get out from the university because as far as I can remember I was in the music room, where that song came from. I don't even know that it's raining.
"Are you sad?" he ask in deep voice
And my forehead creased because of it.
"No. I'm just pretty" I reply and look at him
The corner of his lips rose up a bit as he look at me with a mischievous glint on his eyes.
"Yes, my Cami is really pretty" he whisper looking at me with cheeky smile.