42 Hiding Emotions

Your POV

I was glad that I was on better terms with Neville but it wasn't helping my aching heart. I decided to push my emotions to the side, because Neville needed this and I wasn't about to leave him in the dark. Neville and I watched as Umbridge ordered for another plaque to be nailed into her wall of rules, I huffed rolling my eyes. Neville took my hand in his. I looked at our interlaced hands then back to him.

"Please try not to break anymore rules" He said looking me in the eye. I nodded.

"Okay, but I can't guarantee it". He looked down nervously retracting his hand.

The next day I joined the crowd of students that watched Fred and George promote some of their tricks. They were currently shooting a spark back and forth between each other, both showing off different moves they could pull with it.

George flung it in the air and as it was coming down it fizzled out, at the hands... well wand of the pink clad bitch herself. I swear I've seen her in that coat everyday for the past 7 weeks.

The twins were upset their fun was ruined.

"Didn't even get to the fireworks" Fred mopped. I have no idea what came over me but next thing I know I got one of the said fireworks and using a spell, glued it to the back of my skateboard that the twin originally wanted me to bring. I lit it and skated down the hall behind Umbridge. This is not going to end well. I prepared myself to attempt to stay on as it went off. I managed to stay on for 2 seconds before I flipped back landing on the ground. My skateboard flew up and hit the roof. I laughed as most of the students did, the laughter died out when a very pissed looking Umbridge turned around.

She practically dragged me to her office where my punishment would commence. I was fully prepared to be expelled for that stunt.

"You are one stubborn little git" She growled. I just stayed quiet.

"Unfortunately for me the Ministry don't want you to be expelled due to the origin of your magic. A good amount of discipline is what was recommended, that I can do. Believe me when I say I'm going to make your life hell while you choose to rebel." She smiled and began her medieval punishments.

Now why did I choose to suffer more after my last encounter? Draco Malfoy heard all about the weakness I showed in front of Umbridge and news spread pretty quick about crybaby Y/n. Neville tried to convince me that no one could handle her punishment, others that have experienced it sympathized with me. But others thought it was a great time to bully me more since I was weak and probably wouldn't do anything about it, it only got worse because no one has seen me use my powers in a long time. In this heightened emotional state I made the decision to stop showing my emotions all together. I felt like I needed this. The only way to show I didn't care was to face Umbridge again, but this time act as if nothing bothers me.

The twins and Neville were worried sick about me. They were about to try and find me when I walked into the common room with a black eye and a few other scratches. Neville pulled me straight into a hug.

"Neville I'm fine I promise" I spoke forcing my confidence.

"Don't do that again, please" He said.

"How are you still here, why aren't you expelled?" Fred asked confused.

"Apparently the Ministry have an interest in my powers and don't want me out of school." I explained. While they thought it was weird they were glad. Neville got me some ice.

"What exactly did she do?" George asked softly. I shrugged.

"It doesn't matter, I'm fine" I said.

Before they could protest I excused myself and went up to my dorm to get changed. I took off my robe finally comfortable to do so in my shared dorm since Fred and George got me some long sleeved shirts.

I got some fresh clothes from my case and made my way down to have a shower and freshen up. I was about to walk in when I overheard some girls talking about me. I stopped and stepped to the side to listen.

"Y/l/n thinks she's better than everyone else because of her oh so special powers, she deserves all the pain she gets. In my opinion Umbridge should be harder on that show off" One commented.

"That slut thinks she's so perfect with her big boobs and ass, have you seen the guys staring. No wonder Longbottom wanted to date her so bad" The other said.

I caught myself looking down at my boobs and ass to see if they were right.

"That whore is so desperate of course she went out with Longbottom, but no guy would actually want her for a relationship. All she's good for to any guy is sex." The first girl replied.

"I heard that she always goes home in the holidays because she needs money, where do you think that money comes from? She probably charges people for sex and most guys would jump at the chance. I bet if we got Justin to ask her to spent the night with him she totally would." Both the girls laughed as they walked out. I made myself transparent as they went past me.

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I sighed and got into the shower and looked at my body, they were right my ass and boobs are too big. I traced the new scars that littered my stomach, my parents weren't so forgiving this time round. They beat me as usual but when my father had too much to drink he would cut me or use different tools to burn me. I could barely stand looking at myself in the mirror, how could any guy stand the sight of me. Even Neville who is so sweet and kind would throw up or be disgusted by me. I finished up and got dressed going back to my dorm.