1 27th March;A Hope in the Abyss.

It's been three week,I was a idiot to never see the pain in her eyes,when I think back she was never gloomy, always happy and beautiful,she was joyful all the time,for me she was my light, I see no value in my life,just a random guy with no value in life,I first meet her when we start School,I was quietly going to my designated class,I don't have any friends, I was a lonely loner not because of my choice, but I always seems to hurts people who are closed to me.But on my way to class, strangely she talk first to me,her smile and easy going nature.I feel a strong connection to her the first time i see her,I actually never love anyone, I'm a selfish guy who will secrifice his friends for his benefits. She change me, I never knew I can be a better man,change my anger to forgiveness,sorrow to happiness and hate to Love.

Even though I knew her for only seven months i never meet someone quiet like her,those beautiful moment we're not ment to last I guess,I was such a idiot I guess, I never see the pain behind that sweet smile that tear behind her dazzling eye,at last the burden of life get to her,when I see her in the bed laying motionless,a part of me died, it shattered me. Kinda cruel I think,the person who give me hope, the will to live life to the fullest,the one who give me hope was the one who need Hope the most,I never told her how important she was to me,She was my friend,my Bestfriend.

Life was not easy these past few weeks,my life is empty, whenever I see her seat it was empty,I searched for her but she was nowhere to be found,feels like Sun doesn't shine for a long time, It's cold and depressing.

The mind feels tired after a few days of not sleeping, I was tired and as i was sleeping

in a dreamlike state i was on, Twenty seventh February this day was Sunday, I remember this day clearly because I have injury this day, it was because of my carelessness but I have a scretch in my forehead,we even have to go to the Hospital because it was bleeding soo much,Ya my Brother throw a stone at me and stupid me don't catch the stone and hit my head, Since the event was recent the scar still doesn't even heal yet,but in that moment of dreamlike state,when my brother throw the stone at me,I catch it,at that moment i waken from my sleep,what a weired dream i thaught to myself,but when i look myself at the mirror the scar was nowhere to be scene as if it never was there,i was taken aback,i was in a state of confusion, I have no perception on what's real or not real anymore,does the action in my dream really change my current present, that's when it struck me,can I used this to save her can I really help her? when i sleep again it was Twenty eight February,which is the next day of my the head incident and it's Monday,so I hurriedly run to my class and there I see her sitting and talking with her friends.

I nearly hug her,but I stop myself,if i do that it will be too weired and that's not my target, I want to save her,now i was a man with mission, so she died in fifth march so counting today I have five days,time is not actually on my time and if I do something stupidly there is even a chance she died before time so I have to be calculative, there's lunch break and the way home from School,taking in average I have around 8 Hours maximum and I dont even knew when I'm waking up,so every second really counts

So the mission to save her start