1 Chicago’s best

"🎶Is it so wrong to choose the ones by my side,🎶… ugh no that won't work… it sounds so fake, there's no emotion" This is my daily routine wake up, try to move forward in my song,Fail miserably, then wallow in self pity, drink too much iced coffee until I desire to sleep again or my parents decide to give me the future talk .which bores me to sleep so… Hey it may sound pathetic but it's how I spend my days. Until…

*knock knock* "

It was Cameron, and Jessica my best friends in the world also my only friends but let's not get into that. Needless to say they're awesome not that I'd ever tell them that but you get the idea.

"Guess what…"Jessica said with Cameron close being close behind all but storming into my humble home, excitement excruciatingly clear in her tone. It's likely something good happened to her she's only this antsy when either she has important work overdue ( Doubt it) something unbelievable happened or she was severely drunk; believe when I say the former is the only one mildly believable. That ladies and gentlemen is why I call her a hurricane behind her back because on one hand she's a force of nature and on the other she's a natural disaster.

"okay I'm just gonna tell you, we got accepted into CHICAGO'S BEST! Crazy right!!!"

Okay for those of you who are living under a rock and are blissfully unaware Chicago's best is THE biggest talent show in the whole country. People travel from far and wide just to enter their music in hopes of auditioning and we just got accepted after entering on one of Jess's whims and we got in!!!!

After much screaming and jumping for a much needed 10minutes. We finally managed to calm down enough for us to address the matter at hand.

"I honestly didn't think we'd even get considered when I submitted our entry especially after our ridiculous name. I'm honestly surprised they took us seriously." But seriously would you take a band called Harmonic discord. The name makes me cringe at the mention of it.

On a less exciting note Cameron,Jessica and I created a small band together and we have been performing together since we were six. To sidetrack a little this'll be an awesome distraction from what's going on in my family, long story short to my mom and dad have been on edge lately trying to decide what is 'best' for me. Dad thinks it should be my decision and mom wants to send me to medical school. Her heart is in the right place but I just wish either of them would actually ask me what I want. Well during that little flashback I was lost in panic, Jessica started being an absolute force of nature saying and I quote "We have don't have a lot of time for a lot of things but I think Carter's song that he will need to write from scratch, takes priority so Cam you have to help him finish it as soon as possible. Now I just need the name of the song and I'll get on the costumes and props, if we can't find any I'll have to juggle rehearsals and creating the costumes myself but rest assured guys I'll get it done I always do." Another thing I forgot to mention is what I like to call 'Camica' ,okay, maybe it needs work but it's basically Cam and Jess together I think they like each other and just don't realize it yet. "And I'll help you when I have time I'm quite good with my hands" you know after Cam said this I'm starting to wonder if maybe he isn't oblivious to his feelings. Unfortunately Jess quickly shuts him down basically saying that until my song is finished we can't focus on anything else, NO PRESSURE. To be honest with you I've never had this much pressure on me to do well. Mom and dad are always too involved in their own matters to even care but I kinda got used to the freedom and the silence. I remember on my 5th birthday my dad gave me these awesome pair of black and blue headphones and whenever it would get bad I would turn up my music to the max until my ears felt like they'd fall off. Then I'd lock my room door and hide there until either my parents would stop arguing or I'd fall asleep, It was my happy place

*Seven days later*

I've got nothing. Absolutely nothing. Cam has been trying hard to 'inspire' me and to some extent it may have even worked but if I hear another 'you just need a change of pace' I'm gonna lose it with no lyrics coming to me at this rate we will have nothing sing at the audition. Let me be the first to say we aren't in the best place for our band.

It's just problem after problem nowadays. My parents don't think it's best for me to enter the contest. Great. She means well most of the time but when she thinks she's doing what is best for me she just ends up making me feel like I'm—like I'm suffocating. "Trust me it's for the best it's not like you are gonna win the competition anyway I'm saving you a lot of time that you can spend on more productive things." My own mother doesn't even believe in me. I think she needs me to be the perfect child not happy. It wasn't always this way, I remember a time when my dad would spend hours strumming on his guitar and mom would sing and her voice would make the everyone stop and listen, she'd sing me to sleep and all the nightmares would go away. That's when I knew for sure that I loved music. We were happy. She was our light but when she started dimming no one was there to help her shine again. I'm useless. A sudden realization strikes me. This is it what I want to say I just have to put it into lyrics. Something the world should hear 'Her song'

*Three days later*

Frazzled and frantic as I toss and turn while making a mess of everything in my room. It's still not enough, I can't do it. I can't do it without—huh? I don't know even know what I was going to say. What is it that I'm missing? What do I need? Just as I am lost in my seemingly endless confusion Jessica comes to bring me back to the harsh reality of my situation. "We are waaaay behind schedule we need your song Carter. Start taking this a little more seriously" It's a little frustrating to hear her say that with all that's going on with my family but I let myself sit on that feeling a little longer so I don't end up in an odd position.