1 How It All Started

My dad is mean my ears go down and my tail stops wagging and then I whimper. He raped me... He has no tongue or eyes was really bloody. I have a scar on my arm as my hoodie sleeve lifts up.

He uh... He uh... He uh cut me... Deep to I was bleeding... After he filled me up he cut me... My dad made me use to pain. I'm use to pain and because of him it's my kink... My dad is scared of me.

I have bruises on my arm and legs from him. I-i had surgery too... F-five years ago on my leg. I have trust issues and my backstory is people don't really like the shy quiet kid that is part human part cat.

I normally stay to myself for the most part. Never had any friends and was always abused by my parents for wanting to be male. Yes I'm transgender my parents abuse me for it. I'm only really close to my grandmother.

Even after what she said. I am still upset about it. I'm shy and quite. But I'm a silly goofy person once I've opened up. I hate makeup. I love pants, shorts kinda, tank tops, shirts, converse and shoes maybe.

I love glasses like fake ones and real ones contacts most of the time. I love different eye contacts even multicolored. I need actual parents that care about me for who I want become.

But that's not gonna happen anytime soon. Mom hurts me and tells dad to rape me so he does. Which I hate cause he's gotten me almost pregnant on different accusations. Which again I hate.

But they don't care as long as I'm miserable they are happy. Which him getting me pregnant at the age of eight yes this happened at the age of five or six. Anyways he started to not use protection at the age of eight.

I want to be a guy so bad. Oh I'm Roxy that's my dead name my name I want to be called is Ryder but they won't call me that. Roxy Jasper not Ryder Rex. What's up with that? I don't even know.

I have a friend that I've known since we were born actually. His name is Robin and hes my crush. I remember one day in kindergarten he never had a snack so I shared mine with him. He didn't want me to.

But I did anyways against his protesting. He loves me anyways. I mean I do love him as in a crush type of love. Wait I already said he was my crush. Well is my crush sorry I'm rambling.

Anyways he want's to hang out but I'm not sure. I mean I do need to clean my room. So I clean my room and then call him. He doesn't answer like always. I keep trying until he picks up.

"Robin Johnson speaking." Robin said.

"Wanted to hang out right?" I asked.

"Duh can we?" Robin asked.

"I'll have to ask." I said as I went to ask my parents.

"Yes slut?" Dad asked.

"Can I go to Robins?" I asked brushing off the name.

"Sure as long as you got a ride whore." Mom said.

"My dad can bring her." Robin said.

"Okay then you can go whore." Mom said.

"He'll be there in five minutes." Robin said.

"Okay pack your shit slut." Dad said.

"Okay "dad." I said as I went to my room and packed.

"By the way whore your gonna be home alone while were on our trip." Mom said/yelled.

"What about Jason, John and James?" I asked.

"They can't remember John has two kids Jennifer and Hanna." Mom said.

"Oh right." I said.

"Jason hates you." Dad said.

"But i-." I said.

"No but's slut." Dad said.

"What about James?" I asked.

"We don't care whore." Mom said.

"Bu-." I was about to say.

"We don't care!" Mom said as she hit me.

"Fine!" I said as I packed and ended the call as I went to the vehicle and got in.

"He-." Robin said as he noticed my eye.

"Your bleeding." Ryan (Robin's dad) said.

"Wh-." I said as I touched my cheek.

"What happened?" Robin asked as I had a flashback.

"By the way whore your gonna be home alone while were on our trip." Mom said/yelled.

"What about Jason, John and James?" I asked.

"They can't remember John has two kids Jennifer and Hanna." Mom said.

"Oh right." I said.

"Jason hates you." Dad said.

"But i-." I said.

"No but's slut." Dad said.

"What about James?" I asked.

"We don't care whore." Mom said.

"Bu-." I was about to say.

"We don't care!" Mom said as she hit me.

"Fine!" I said as I packed and ended the call as I went to the vehicle and got in.

"That's what happened." I said as the flashback ended.

"Oh wow." Robin said.

"I'm going to take you out of that house you can live with me at my home." Ryan said.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yes really." Ryan said.

"Thank you Mr. Johnson." I said

"Call me Ryan." Ryan said.

"Okay thank you Ryan." I said.

Once we arrive at the Johnson's house hold. We got out of the car and went into the house. Me and Robin went up to his room and he shut his door as we talked about random things until dinner.

After dinner we went to his room again and went to bed around seven, seven thirty eight o'clock. The next day we woke up got dressed and then ate breakfast after that we went to the park.

"I love you bestie." Robin said.

"I love you too bestie." I said.

"Promise?" Robin asked.

"Promise." I said.

Once we are at the park. We went to the swings and I was on one as he pushed me on it. I was giggling and having a fun time. We are both eight years old. Yes we are young but not that young.

Anyways we promised that we love each other as friends. We were both on the swings as we were talking. I smile up at him as he smiles back at me. I giggle again as he laughs at our silliness.

"I love you bestie." Robin said.

"Love you too bestie." I said with a smile.