Jimin I am sorry

jungkooks pov:

Dear diary,

He was the most beautiful person I have every seen in New York ,his name you might ask was Park Jimin.

He was a year elder to me but because I had applied for a higher class in dance ,we shared a class.

Now let me tell you why I feel that he is beautiful ,it's because of his smile ,he oftens says that he can't see through his eyes when he laughs but that's the thing how can someone be so prescious.i always wanted to protect him but I just realized I only protected myself in the end .

He used to always make me laugh and be there for everyone and without me noticing I was falling for him and I could not control it how could anyone not love him ,he is amazing from his beautiful eyes to his tiny chubby fingers that looks so soft to his thick feet ,how could I stop ?

I wanted to protect him I really did ,but when people came to know about my feelings towards him .

They didn't seem to like it ,I feel they didn't even care to know me before the judged me but then that day Jimin asked me .

If all the rumors of me where true I was scared ,he held my hand and his eyes looked kind but so did the others before who had asked had to and as soon as I reply they would walk away and I could not bare losing him but in the end I did. In the span of few months we had become close but this question made me afraid.

And so I did the most dumbest thing I have ever done in my life , I pushed him away ,I thought I was protecting him by doing this ,never thinking it would turn out to be worse.

I saw him being bullied but I walked away, he tried to talk to me but I walked away ,I am sorry Jimin it was all my mistake ,it was not your fault that it turned out this was .

because I chose to push you away ,I miss you Jimin, I hope your okay because I really want to tell you something if I could meet you someday.