Chapter 3

I sit there waiting for the blood to stop, it eventually stops and I calm down. Climb down the ladder and sit on the porch. My dad sits next to me, and I wonder what he's gonna say. It took a while to understand but he wanted me stop meeting people from the internet, and that I'm too young for gaming friends. I felt gutted, and sunkin, I have amazing friends on the internet but- I can see where he is, letting his daughter have online friends at 11 years old? He wouldn't agree. I connect my airpods to my phone, turn some music on and sit in the loft, just sit and listen to everyone. Everyone that has something to do, everyone that feels no guilt for being alive. I start comparing myself to them, to my- my f-family... I sit there, I think I sat there for at least three hours, skipping lunch. I'm half asleep when my dad comes up the ladder, "Sheena?" My dad says. "what do you need" I say trying not to be rude. "Come down to Dan's for dinner?" He says. "do I have a choice?" I ask, but I already knew the answer. "Nope, come down in a bit" He says. "Whatever, dad." I say, drift off into my imagination. Later, I go down and we have dinner. I sit there, finished with my food and listening to my music. No one really cares and nether do I, "Damn... Ok" I whisper as I realized that tomorrow is my sisters birthday. I didn't get her anything, and Mira probably knows that, seeing that I don't do birthdays much. But I wasn't in a good mood so I felt really bad at that point. But probably Mom is gonna let me give her something last minute or whatever. "Shit..." I whisper to myself. My mother is coming.

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