1 Bridge

Memories some are to keep and some are not. People want to forget especially the moment where they fail, loss someone or got hurt. But what if you can't forget? Every horrible moment, every event, every time you got hurt. Hyperthymesia a disorder that makes you able to recall and remember every single moment that has happened to you so far. Its like the past is instilled in your brain and anything you do wont make the memories away. This is my problem. I can never forget. But people tend to forget me. Hi I'm Joseph and I have hyperthymesia. My life has been a mess. People had come and go in my life just to hurt me. Parents are divorce. No real siblings just step siblings who dont really know about me.. I live alone in an apartment that I rent with the allowance I get from my parents. I'm kind of an outcast of my family. Both my mom and dad has a new family. That's why I cant live with any of them. So I live alone. I learned to be independent cause I have to.

Friends? I use to have those. But none now. Because of thr pain that I've experienced before. That doesn't matter now though I still remember it all. The pain is still hete along with the memories. Yet I just learn to live with it. Learn to go on with my day. With nothing to worry about but myself. Listening to music is my only escape towards everything. And also I dont really want to meet anyone new. I'll just go on with my everyday. Study, graduate, work. Just a simple plain process. Happiness? That is something I haven't had a clear clue on what is. All I know is I'm good even I'm alone. Not okay. But good.

Still I wish sometimes my days would change. That something or someone could put a little bit color on my black and white world. In which all my days are monotone the taste my food is dull. But fate is kind sometimes because it lead me to someone. I still remember it all. That day on that bridge

Friday afternoon I was walking home after school. I accidentally made a wrong turn because I was listening to music and wasn't really paying much attention to the road. Then without knowing I bumped into someone

"Ouch!!" Said the girl

I kind of didn't know what to do. I was more worried with my headphones that fall on the ground as I bump into this girl

"Watch where you're going that hurt"

"Oh sorry let me help you up my bad"

"No its fine I can stand... But waittt oh noooo!!" Said the girl as she panics for some reason

"Why?"

I'm usually not curios about things but I asked anyway

"Where am I again? And who are you? What was I doing?"

I was bombarded with questions by this girl

"Where's the paper that I was holding? Oh noo"

She was talking a whole lot of things that I dont understand or know how to answer.

"Uhm I dont know. But sorry again for bumping in to you"

"No its not your fault sorry I just to forget things. And this paper I'm looking for is kind of a reminder for myself"

I still dont get what's her deal. But the look in her eyes. Seems kind and innocent. I want to help her. But I also dont want to get involve. I try to walk away from her but this happened

"So yeah I think I'll be going on my way sorry again"

She held my hand and said

"Hey wait just a moment after bumping into me dont you think its your responsibility to at least help me out? Cause again its your fault"

All of a sudden his mood has change. It's kinda funny but I'm not laughing because the situation I'm in is something I'm not a fan of. Because I don't like interacting with others anymore. Still she was holding my hand so what more I can do expect help the girl out

"Ok I guess I'll help you"

"Good" then she smiled at me

Once again his mood changed

"By the way whats your name" said this weird girl

"I'm Joseph"

"Ohh Hi I'm Ana and I dont really know what I was doing but can you help me get home"

That was a weird request and I really dont know what to do first. So we asked around if someone recognizes her. Walked around passed some houses. I keep asking her if its familiar with her. But all she keep saying is

"I dont remember"

Which is really weird how can someone possibly forget where they live. We passed the park and all of a sudden his mood changed again into excitement

"Heyyy wait lets stop here look its the park can we swing?"

"But how about getting home?"

"That can wait for later let's just go please?"

Its only been minutes since I've been with Ana and yeah I've seen so many sides of her that I'm confused its been a long while since I've even talked to someone and hare I am. With these girl I cant quite understand.

"Ok sure lets go"

All of a sudden I see myself pushing her from a swing. Smiling and laughing with her. This is the first time that I have communicated with someone and be with someone for this long. I haven't really smiled in a while but that time we had and shared on that park was a moment where I saw myself happy.

"Oh yeah now I kind of remember it was not written on a paper it was on my phone"

"What phone? Still dont get it?"

"The thing is since I'm forgetful I always put notes on my phone to where I'm going or what am I going to do. Now if only I could found my phone"

I wanted to be with her longer. But then again I see his phone in which all this time it was in her pocket. That's why to not act like a smug I just said.

"Maybe it's in your pocket?"

She checked and there it is

"Oh yeah haha sorry I'm a rel klutz at times"

I agree and was laughing inside. She called someone she knows that will help her get home. I waited along with her on the park then he came. Her best friend John.

"Hi I'm John. Thank you for taking care of my best friend she's a real handful at times." Said John

"Oh dont worry about it."

"Thanks again I'll take her home now careful on your way home bro"

"Yeah you too"

"bye now thanks for accommpanying me to the park I had a really nice time. Even though I dont quite remember how we met"

Then just like that they left. But still this day has been different. Its not dull or colorless like the usual. Because I met this girl. An innocent looking, cute, obnoxious, clumsy and still many more. In which I'm looking forward to be able to meet her again. I just really wonder. If I can meet her again at that same bridge..