Chapter 06: Discoveries

Stirring the pot of ramen mixed with various vegetables and a egg being fried with a pair of bread toasted or rather put on the pan to achieve some crispiness to my left. A lot of thoughts went through my mind, I personally disliked cursing but I felt like if I did some of my frustration would be relived.

This whole world has gone insane and if I'm not careful I will too but as each day passes by, trying to hold on to my resolve seems more and more hard. I had begun to accept the fact that the zombies needs to be killed but HOW?! how! am I supposed to let things go that easily!

I killed a Child for God's sake!, it doesn't matter if the kid was a zombie, it lived once didn't it-saying so tears rolled down from my eyes but I remained stirring the pot. I ..can't keep on living like this but I have to don't I?what's the point anymore? why does it matter if I live anymore or not?

The people were already bad but now they'll be even worse now. I had barely scraped by before in this wretched world before but now my chances are practically close to zero. My tears kept on raining down but for some odd reason I still felt the need, despite all the sadness and guilt in my heart, I wanted to force a hopeful mood, a optimistic thought that things would get better, that things aren't that bleak.

Why? were was this coming from? since when was I this optimistic? but then I remembered that I had previously WANTED to live and that I wanted to live happily away from all my abusers and problems. Realization dawned on me and my stirring stopped.

To purse the life I wanted, I had implemented discipline into my life, subconsciously forming habits one of them being-"trying to look for hope",a weak voice came out .

That was why I had that thought. So then that's that, there is still certainly no point in living but I can't just abandon myself, can I? then I will do what I can to make myself used to this world at all costs.

Drying my face with my shirt. I took my lunch off the stove and took it too the living room where I eat it silently. I had already placed the body out side, a bit farther away from the house. A thought came to me to bury he-it no her but that would have had obvious issues.

With my paranoia being as high as it is, I didn't want to risk it. So I placed her somewhere gently but I already knew what would happen to the body, no matter what I still wanted to keep my humanity even if this world tries to rob me of it and I pray that my resolve would not be broken in the future.

More pessimistic thoughts popped up but I ignored them. I know my mind would become more alike to whatever I exposed it do so, I wanted to invest trying to create a hopeful personality or at the least not a hopeless one.

I put my utensils down as I just finished my lunch. I went to go clean the dishes that I used after, doing that I went to brush my teeth because I didn't like awful smell left after eating eggs.

Now was the time I addressed my issues, had my powers just finished? I believe I've about absorbed five objects thus far. One being the bag of chips, the piece of wood, my trusty pan, the fully loaded 9mm magazine and the chunk of flesh I got from the zombie.

I had already tried to absorb one more object, ramen, to test my theory but I couldn't. Well, is it possible that I forget some of the objects I've already absorbed, this question popped up because whenever I start trying to duplicate something all five objects appear in front of me like some sort of selection screen.

I tried to put this theory to use and tried to forget the piece of zombie flesh by imagining it to slowly disappear eventually, It did disappear and it appeared right in front of me, I thought I had just duplicated it but no it was gone from my mind so the fact of the matter was that I basically had a storage space too !

Immediately putting the theory to use I tried to absorb the 12 gauge shell pack and a huge load of information greeted me.

Clutching my mind again to try lessen the pain, I was slowly getting used to the pain. Suddenly, I stopped signalling the absorption being done, the crazy thing about this power was whenever I tried to absorb something It wasn't like a memory or thought, it felt real like another object occupying my mind.

I had wanted to interact with it more but couldn't because of the situation around me. Well now I had guns and their ammo, plenty of food and a somewhat safe place to stay at. I had already boarded up or blocked their windows and doors so, my safety was guaranteed to some end.

I knew that my powers doesn't give one slot to one object each because then I couldn't have absorbed the ammo pack and magazine, that was one perk but another question is that how big a object can I absorb for just one slot? that would give me enough information to plan out my future steps more carefully.

To test this theory I got myself a cardboard box filled with random junk and it came up to my knees also was about as large as a stool. I first emptied out one slot which was the one chips packet. I didn't chose the other objects because I believed they would be of use in the future.

I began absorbing and then received a migraine but despite the pain I had absorbed it. I repeated this process a couple of times I've had come to the conclusion that I could absorb something as big as myself, both height and volume. I was 5'10 and was a bit skinny but that still was a large space!

I wanted to understand how this power works like where are the objects I absorb or should I rather say "store" go to? sure, I can view them in my mind but I can't obviously have them physically inside my mind. I also wanted to see if I could absorb two separate objects as for one slot.

I'm certain I can and I already practically every object till now beside the large piece of wood and maybe more? but the ones I did had some sort of connector or a bridge that connected the separate objects like cardboard box for the items inside or bullets inside the magazine.

But is it possible without a connector, I used my already empty slot that I had used for my experiments and wanted to absorb a T.V remote and a spoon. I held them together and began absorbing, it worked! but was it because I myself acted as the connector? or was it that I wasn't counted as a factor entirely, my body I mean?

Maybe I'll get my answers someday or never but these certainly save me from hunger. To recap, I had two slots as ammo holders, one for my trusty pan, one for my ramen while the last one was empty. hmm the ammo slots are fine but I gotta do something about the other two maybe I can replace ramen for something better.

Wait, of course I can! how did I forget this quickly-face palming, I only just did the experiments like some minutes ago. Seriously, my own mind astounds me sometimes, no no more bad thoughts. It's okay I make mistakes sometimes too, no biggy!

I cleared out my ramen slot and went to prepare a cardboard box. It was as big as the first box I used for my first experiment today, dusted it off and covered its insides with a clean cloth sheet. I got some three packs of ramen, I first removed their plastic covering and replaced it with some clean cloth, including their spice packets.

Listen, I do not trust plastic and to be frank, cloth is and always will be better than plastic. Besides at the very least I won't die from cancer and as how my life is now. I want to die a warrior's death ..okay maybe not that grand but still I hate fighting for so long for only to die from some random disease.

Anyway, I also filled the box with some veggies like green onion,carrots,tomatoes,and potatoes also some eggs. I made sure to separate all of them with clean cloth because well, I don't want the food to end up mixing and causing it to stink entirely but it shouldn't matter. A thought popped up, how does time pass at wherever I store the objects?

I mean up until now, I couldn't sense a difference in the ramen but I wanted to make sure so I got some opened milk from the fridge. I absorbed it separately in my fifth slot, I decided to use this slot for my experiments. I mean every slot is worth more than gold but I need to understand my power to use it to its full potential.

I also filled up the box with salt,sugar and some other common spices. I also found some three medium glass jars emptied them out, cleaned them out and filled them tap water I got from this house.

I packed up the box nicely and absorbed it but oomph! the pain was a kicker. When it finally calmed and I stopped seeing two tables, I tried to view it in my mind and I officially dubbed the "food pack". Considering that I did so much with just one slot, I also wanted to do similar with the other slots but that'll have to wait.

I was confident that the number of times I could duplicate the food pack would be probably five-six but that was expected and I wasn't too sad about that. I mean I could always duplicate them separately.

The interesting thing about this power was that I could could view it in my mind in 3-D and also the fact that I could zoom in and out, basically observe it completely. I wanted to see if I could I absorb my phone because it had many purposes like to know time, google map, record something like in video,etc.

But what would help me most was the knowledge I had in here like the survival,bush craft,farming, medical knowledge,etc. This phone was really valuable because electricity has gone down and likely there would be no one to maintain the power plants or the electricity terminals.

So I was trying to use my phone minimally to save it's battery life but if If time really is slowed inside my mind it would save me power and storage. I replaced the metal pan with my phone, it had served me well but it had to go.

As soon as I absorbed it, it didn't hurt that much as before likely due to my multiples uses of my power so, I was grateful for that. Immediately going to check the slot, I was ecstatic! this was amazing news!

Now I don't have to worry about it braking either and it was actually more faster to access it in my mind because I could simply will what I wanted to see. With my experiments done, I picked up my now lighter bag due to me not needing carry so much stuff around.

I set out, I wanted to more experiments but the quick passing of time was worrying me and I was writing as I saw a huge group of zombie's coming from the eastern side of the street. I couldn't be slow now or I'll be caught but if I was seen, they would see me and surely run after me.

Knowing how relentless and brutal as they are, I used buildings,walls or objects like dumpsters as cover and got out of there. There were more zombies ahead but not enough to stop me from sneaking on by.

I didn't stop running and hiding for twenty minutes straight. Eventually I stopped but where I spotted some people-this is the second time this day! why are they walking so carefree? is there base close-by?