80 Hypocrite

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Since when? How?

Why?

Numerous questions swirled around inside my head, each question was trying to find it's answer in my mind. But my mind provided no answer.

My mind was not minding at this point.

I was pretty sure that Komi had feelings towards me from the way she reacted to my new relationship with Marin.

But really?

Again, 'why' was the big question.

I turned to my side and looked at my reflection on the window. I stared in wonder as I thought to myself,

'Am I really that handsome?'

I touched the window, trying to touch my reflection. Then my hand went back to my face as I felt the structure of my perfect visage.

"Wow...Maybe...maybe I really am that charming." I whispered, my ego inflating like an orbeez at the bottom of the ocean.

{Nah bro. Your look has nothing to do with it. You are literally the only guy who she spent time with. The only one who she could communicate with. Of course she would have something for you.} the author said, taking my orbeez (ego} out of the deep water.

'Huh. I can always trust you to drag me from my high horse and humble me.' I said sarcastically while rolling my eyes, sarcastically. I made sure I was being sarcastic.

{Well, that's what friends are for right? And besides I wanted to defend Komi. She is not so shallow to fall for your appearance, she literally fall for the most average guy in the original show.}

I nodded, agreeing.

And friends huh. I guess the author really is my best friend.

'Though are you sure my good looks played no part at all?' I asked with a smirk.

{No. Pretty sure it doesn't.} He said but his tone and the way he said it clearly meant, 'Maybe.'

{Literally I didn't mean that.} He said but he was just trying to act like the traditional guy friend who wouldn't compliment his friend but says good stuff behind his back

{Nope. Don't just assume stuff.} He said but truthfully, from the way he chose his words, he agreed with me.

{Annoying bastard.}

I laughed, "Sorry. But I can't help my ego from growing. I have such a great luck with women these days. Marin, Sumire and now Komi?" I said thoughtfully.

"Maybe I am special, you know?"

{*Vomits*}

"Hey!! I am literally the main character here." I joked and laughed a bit. happy to get my mind off the current situation.

Who knew the friend you don't really have an interest in liking you can be so nerve wrecking. I was never that popular so I definitely didn't know. Heck I never really had friends to begin with.

{On another note, what are you going to do with her? I am sure she likes you a little bit but it shouldn't be serious yet. Are you chasing after her or letting her feeling die out?} The author asked with genuine curiosity.

I played with that question in my mind, bouncing it around and imagining the outcome of every choice.

But in the end the answer was simple.

Although Komi was without flaw and probably the most perfect girl I had ever laid my eyes on, I would not make a move on her.

{So you are not doing it?}

"Yes."

{May I ask why?}

It was because I did not want to do that to Marin. My relationship with Sumire was already weighing heavy on my mind and I was barely justifying my own actions, I didn't want to make it more complicated.

I did not want to do the same thing my ex did. I didn't wish to hurt her like that.

I want to do better than that. Be better than that. 

I know it sounds hypocrite coming from me since I basically fucked another girl the same day Marin confessed to me, but I did not wish to go further.

{You not only sound like a hypocrite, you are a hypocrite.} The author said bluntly.

I paused.

And swallowed his words.

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"Yeah, I guess I am." I said with a helpless chuckle.

'I was no better than her with what I am already doing, aren't I?'

There are many excuses I could make. I had loved and cared for Sumire from day 1. I was not having an intimate relationship with a stranger I barely knew just for the sake of pleasure. I truly love Sumire and care for her. Also my relationship with Marin was still not clear, bla bla bla.

Many excuses I had made trying to justify myself. But in the end, it was just that, excuses.

I hate excuses.

"I am a hypocrite. But again all humans are a hypocrite." I paused after saying that, and sighed.

Another excuse? Really?

I really need to learn self accountability again. 

"Indeed I am a hypocrite." I said and my shoulder slumped down.

Truly a self realization moment. Like that moment when the MC finally realized who he truly was, just mine was a way lamer.

I was not the child of prophecy. I did not have a hidden bloodline. I was not END.

I was a hypocrite.

Whooo!!! What a discovery.

{Well at least you are honest about it. And don't worry, I think you are better than most people.} the author said helpfully.

'No. Thank you for being honest with me.'

{And on that note, since you already accepted that you are a hypocrite, how about going after Komi and making an official harem?} the author said.

I chuckled, is that why? Really, he only care about making my life interesting huh.

'Sorry. Still no.'

{Oh come on!! We both know you got hard when you realized she liked you. You want her, you want her so bad.}

I opened my mouth to retort but I couldn't. Because it was true.

But it was not just Komi though. After losing my virginity I have been horny as fuck!! My horny teenage mind had a breakthrough. Every girl was sexy as fuck.

To me their simple actions were breathtaking. From their neck, their nails, their small ears, every little things about any girl seem to attract me. Even body parts I never knew could be attractive were looking good.

I think my race was finally activated when I had my first time. Now I truly had the libido of an incubus.

I can lust after almost any girl at this point.

I needed to look into that. Luckily it was just attraction and as a man with a strong will (literally one of my title) I could control myself.

So yeah, what the author said didn't really count.

The real question though was, "How the fuck did you know I was hard?"

Why did he always have to be mad sus?

{Don't change the subject!!} He said and I think he was blushing.

Ew.

{We are talking about Komi!! I think you will be a good partner as the only person who can communicate with her. You guys share a deep connection and I can't see Komi finding a better person since Tadano did not exist here.}

I paused and ponder on what he said. Even though I agreed with his statement, I am not launching any more operations. 

"I am not going to go after her okay."

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{...}

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{Fine. I can respect that.} the author said.

Then right at that moment, Komi returned and sat back on her seat. I noticed that the hair near her face and her face itself was slightly wet, as if she had just washed her face.

She looked at me and quickly scribbled on her notebook before showing it to me.

(Sorry for acting strange earlier.) 

I gave her an okay sign and the teacher finally came in the classroom.

With that, class began as normal. My mind was clear and I felt relieved after the whole episode.

Accepting myself and stop making excuses.

Well, it was a good thing. Something a person needs to go through multiple times in his life.

But sadly accepting was not the solution. Now I have to worry about other things.

How the fuck should I tell Marin about my situation with my own mother? Will she judge me? Of course she will but will she judge me hrashly?

Or am I going to keep this a secret to my grave.

Such things began runing through my mind as I no longer paid any attention to the class.

I was in a world of my own.

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I felt something hit my face, bringing me out my musing. The teacher had thrown a small piece of chalk at me and hit my face.

"It's your turn Yuito." The female teacher looked at me harshly but I was confused.

'Turn for what?'

{Psst, the class is having a quiz. The teacher asked questions to each student from the subject.}

I nodded at the author and stood up from my seat. I noticed Komi trembling in her seat, she was laughing at me and so did most of the students in the class.

"Your question is..." The teacher asked me a question I had absolutely no answer to.

'Author?'

{Oh wait, let me google that shit.} he said.

I smiled widely at that. Who the fuck needs to study when your best friend is the motherfuking Author.

When I got the answer form the Author, I answered the question.

"Well sharks don't have bones. Their cartilaginous skeletons are much lighter...-" 

It was normal day.

Well, as normal as it could get for me anyways.

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Author : A new week so please spare me some stones? 

And it's a double chapter because I didn't upload yesterday, maybe in about half an hour. Sorry for no update yesterday, I was busy texting a girl.😏

Anyways, thanks for reading.