Mid Terms

Exam time is right around the corner. Like a good student I've been studying a lot. Tony has not been .

This week I've ate every meal alone.

Not like it was part of the deal that we eat together, I just hate eating alone.

On top of that he is coming in really late every night. I can hear them for like 20 minutes up against the door before he comes on but he always comes in alone. I feel bad for listening to him while pretending to be asleep.

I would congratulate him on the girlfriends but it seems to be a different girl each time. I don't know what I'm thinking. I need to keep my nose out of things that don't concern me. I mean it has nothing to do with me so why does it matter?

why isn't he bringing them in? I mean a young healthy man I'm sure he'd like more than a goodnight kiss. I wonder if it's because of me?

I felt like we were getting along really well. We were hanging out a lot. Am I getting jealous that he's not spending as much time with me?

I'll ask him after exams.

...

Before I know it it's the last day of exam week. We have a couple weeks off before we go back to the new term. Before I get back a package from my mom is delivered.

Tony received the package.

I walk in and he starts reading out loud.

"Hey my little Jay Bird. I got you a gift. as you know the anniversary of your brother's death is just a few days away. I want to spend the day with my whole family. That include you. I know you miss him a lot, and you could come rather attached to his old hoodie. However I got you something a little different. I know it's difference but I want you to give it a try.

Love Mama

PS. please bring whoever you are dating."

Times like this I hate being an average height girl.

"Come on give me my shit!" he is holding it to high for me to get it.

"let me see you in the outfit your mom got."

"Why?"

"cuz all you ever wear is that hoodie and you could be hiding a third arm in there. "

"fine whatever. " I take the box.

"this is going to be good. I don't think anyone at the school has seen you without your hoodie. " he pulls out his phone to record.

" If you record this at all your going as my date!" I say slamming the bathroom door.

"so worth it." I thought I heard him say.

Depending on what my mom got it may be super obvious that I'm a girl. She misses me being all girly. I was never as girly as she hoped.

It is a big box it could have a lot of fabric in it. Maybe a new hoodie.

I open the box to find a lot of paper packaging.

no no no... there's a necklace box I open it to see a beautiful necklace and matching hairpins.

More colorful paper and a thin black dress.

"Damnit!"

"what's wrong? It it that bad?"

"Alright Tony... um I don't want you to see this..."

"come on. pass me your brother's hoodie, and I won't record it."

I quickly hand him the hoodie my heart is pounding. This tiny black dress is not leaving this dorm room.

"Please not make a big deal able this."

"like you are? "

"this doesn't change anything" I say before opening the door. I put on the necklace and hair pins.

After a couple short breaths I step out.

Tony looks up and drops his pop. It spills all over him. I turn hide in the restroom but he blocks me.

"What the Hell James!"

"What?"

" What What? look at you?"

"don't tell anyone!"

"what how ???"

"oh come on. it's not that big of a deal!" I say finally.

"Now a big deal I thought I was turnings gay!"

I laugh at him.

"It's not funny. . . "

he went on to explain several times where he felt confused about his sexuality.

"I wanted to kiss you while you were asleep next to me, during that movie night we had. Do you know what that does to a straight man?"

he said really opening up.

"just shut up and give me my hoodie! " I'm really uncomfortable in this. I feel almost naked. He is going obviously looking at all my curves. I'm so embarrassed.

"no. you lied to me! what are you doing in the men's dorm? Why did you lie to me? I thought we were friends!"

"my name is James so they put me here. I asked for a room in the girls dorm but was told no. I never lied!"

"you said you were gay!"

"no! you did! I said I like men which is true." I'm so embarrassed right now I can't believe mom got me such a short tight dress.

"what's wrong with you? Being in the men's dorm could be dangerous. "

I can't take this anymore. if I can't get to the bathroom I'm going to go cover up with my blinked.

...

He let me go to my bed but he fallowed me.

I cover up in my blinked and set on my bed. he goes to set on my bed.

"stop your cover in pop. your going to get me all sticky. " he walks to the restroom for like 20 seconds and comes back in just basketball shorts. He sets on my bed with me.

"look I'm sorry." he said.

"me too"

"here is your hoodie."

"thanks. " I put the hoodie on. "I still feel naked"

"your beautiful you know that right?"

"whatever. "

"for real"

I don't respond.

"girl look at me. I thought I was turning gay."

"What's wrong with that?"

"other than my family nothing. I mean I tried avoiding you but it didn't stop me from thinking about you. I tried seeing girls but I couldn't bring myself to sleep with them. All I could think of was you. Here you are. I was planning on talking you once I got my nerves right. "

"so you like your room mate? "

"yes I like you James"

"even though you told me not to check you out, you've been checking me out."

"yes"

"so. "

"so what I tell you I like you and you say so?"

"so what are you going to do about it?"

"Date me! Will you date me?"

"even if everyone thinks I'm a guy ?"

"yes!"

"I don't want you to lie, just don't bring it to. " I tell him getting closer to him.

"what are you doing?" Tony asked.

I get closer to him. I touched his face and his shoulder. He pulls me on top of him.