Birth

Dark, all is dark around me, wait, what is "me"?

I think it refers to "I", yup, sounds like it, but what is "I"?

I don't know, all I know is that I'm in utter darkness and that I'm unable to move, my "limbs" don't want to.

I seem to be inside something closed but I don't feel any negative feelings, I'm perfectly at ease despite not being able to do anything other than think about and feel my surroundings.

I can sense the "cocoon" I'm in move slightly sometimes, as if gliding on a surface but never past a certain point like there was something blocking it from going further.

I sense something else too, in the surface the cocoon is gliding on, there is a slow but steady gathering of energy, I don't know what kind of energy but there is more and more of it.

***

After thinking for some time, knowledge about my surroundings came to me naturally, as if I always knew it but needed the stimulus to remember it.

Looking at my situation with those new infos, it seems more natural.

"I" am a fairy, a magical being loved by nature but I am not even born yet and that's why my body won't answer, it's simply not yet finished, the thing i'm in is some sort of magic aquatic flower blooming once a year with a fairy if it's conditions are fulfilled, I don't know what they are though but I have a suspicion that the gathering of what my mind identifies as "mana" has something to do with it.

"Mana" as my mind tells me, is something present in all beings and allowing to bend the rules of the world, I'll need to find out more once out of the flower.

Another new discovery is that we are many on the "lake", it seems that the others are part of what is blocking the flower from straying too far along with it's roots, the roots go the the bottom of the flower and down towards the bottom of the lake, I've also felt that they are what keeps the flower and myself alive, through some process unknown to me, they give me what is needed for me to "grow".

Anyways, I'm sure there are more things to find out if I focus enough.

***

I'm bored, I'm terribly bored, there isn't anything to do and there was way less things to find about than I hoped for.

Sure, I sensed some semi-conscious ball of magic that I identified as a "will'o the wisp" whatever that may be, but it just through the flower without doing anything, I think it spread a light inside but I was too busy looking at it magically to use my eyes.

I also found out that what the roots are doing is pulling the mana of the lake inside me and the flower.

Apart from those two things, there isn't anything new, well, let's hope there is before I get bored to death, huh, what is death?

I don't know, something else to think about I guess.

***

Finally, after a time that seemed to strech on for eternity there is some change, the darkness around me is getting gradually lighter.

With my "magical sense", I was able to find out that it the cause of this change is the flower, it is becoming thinner by the day, how long is a day? not important, what is important is that this means I'm will bloom and be born soon.

***

Okay, maybe "soon" was just my delusion speaking, even if the flower is now paper-thin, I'm still entrapped in it, one positive point about this is that I now know how long a day is, the flower is thin enough to let the rays of the "sun" through and I know that a day is the time needed for the sun to set, shine and then set again.

Another good point is that thanks to this new light, I was able to look at the interior of the flower, there seems to be several "petals" stacked on upon one another, they're all a dark magenta, I like this color, I think it's pretty.

One thing that I'm annoyed about other than the "stuck in a flower" business is that I'm unable to move any part of me, I can't even move my head to look at myself, and looking at the same petals each time I open my eyes became boring very quickly.

***

Not much change recently, at least not in the twenty last days, which is pretty damn long, only one thing, the quantity of mana in the lake is growing more and more, to compare to when my consciousness first awoke, it was like small droplets of water and now it's a raging torrent, and it's still growing each passing day.

***

I managed something incredible today!!

I moved my head, it was only a little bit and I still can only see petals but this is a huge progress, my body finally answered one of my orders, maybe I'll soon be able to see myself!

***

I've gotta stop using the word "soon", the last time I managed to move my head was fourteen days ago, something my mind tells me is two weeks, I haven't made one bit of progress on the "move your head" project but I'm trying with all my being, anyways, the mana is now similar to a raging waterfall.

***

It took me two more weeks but I moved my head again and this time it wasn't a fluke, I, with my conscious will, moved a part of my body, it required extreme efforts and wasn't really worth it seeing as I only moved a little and can still only see the petals but still, for the first time since I became aware, I did something else than think and feel.

Oh and by the way there's a change in the mana, it's now increasing in density instead of quantity, if it was thick as water two weeks ago, now it's thick as blood.

***

One month passed since I first moved, my head is saying that a month is four weeks or thirty days which means it's very long.

I can move my head correctly now and I was finally able to look at myself.

I.... look like a baby, like I mean I'm one but I was maybe expecting something a bit more magical, now I have even less of an idea about how my thoughts are functionnal when my body is just one of a baby but i'm not gonna complain about that.

***

I take back what I said, I'm gonna complain again, I'M BORED even more now, I don't even have a goal like moving my head anymore since I've accomplished it and it didn't bring that much novelty to me and I've given up on moving other parts of my body, they're simply not finished yet.

One positive thing is that I feel the roots taking more and more mana which should speed up my growth so let's hope the day i'm freed from this flower is incoming.

***

Great discovery today! I brought my magical senses outside the flower, I don't really know if it was possible because of the flower thinning or because I'm getting better at this whole "magic" thing but anyways i've seen what it looks like from the outside, well not really but from a magical point of view it's a very hard shell which I find surprising compared to the soft interior.

My sensing range is still limited so I was not able to feel my sisters, too bad.

***

Damnit! I just managed to translate my magical vision into an actual image and now the mana of the lake is so overwhelming that it's getting into the air and blurring my view.

Well, at least I had a good look at my flower from the outside before it got ruined by what is essentially a massive whirlwind of mana thick as tar.

Conclusion, the flower I'm inside of looks like a big tulip bud floating on water from the outside, what's surprising is that it's pure white compared to the dark magenta inside, thanks to my better proficiency at sensing things without my eyes I've also managed to look at the flower of one of my sisters and it looked exactly like mine, just a pure white tulip bud on water, I tried to look inside but the exterior "shell" did not allow me.

***

Tonight's the one, I feel it, my mind is clearer than it ever was, my words aren't enough to describe the absurd concentration of mana in the lake, the only thing coming to mind when looking at it is a maelstrom, the air is so thick with it I can't even look outside anymore.

Another thing which makes me think that tonight's the night is the light coming from the moons, I don't know how but I feel something special about it.

Yet another thing is that my body is becoming more and more receptive to my orders, meaning it is finally completed.

And the final clue is that I can hear outside, first there was a sound like too many things hitting the ground, after that I heard two people talk too far from me to understand and finally, one of the people talking flew above us and started to talk, once again I did not understand anything but it's voice was so beautiful it made me want to hear more of it.

After what I assumed is a "she" according to her voice stopped talking I felt the lake go even wilder, as if huge quantities of mana were poured in it, it was a gorgeous spectacle, the lake shined with every color I knew and then some more, the roots of all flower buds then went into overdrive and began to greedily pump all the mana in the lake and pour it in their flower and I guess fairies.

I wasn't really in a state to think at this moment, the massive influx of energy stunned me for quite a good moment.

But finally, after the whole lake was sucked dry, it happened, the flower opened and I was able to see and feel the world for the first time, the scent of the trees and flowers, the stars in the sky and the two moons shining upon me ,the fairies flying above the lake, the green leaves and so much more.

It was at this instant, I realized that I was finally freed, I could now experience the world, and this thought, it made me laugh, I wasn't quite sure what was funny but I wasn't alone, I could hear tens of laughter coming from around me.

At this moment, after so much time, I was born.