1 Prologue

Life and death , birth and departure , it is a cycle , a cycle of endless torment and suffering with a change of appearance and scenery with every start of each cycle . It is , to put it in a simpler term, our very own personal hell loop.

But we , as human beings , the most intelligent species on the planet or so if that is what we call ourselves , do not seem to realize the obvious fact that we are all stuck in this loop which always ends in the same way , death and starts at the same way, birth and life. The constant change of scenery and our own appearance is what fascinates us and makes us engrossed into the mundane life without suspecting a thing . We are like those hamsters and guinea pigs that we mostly keep in a cage , running on the wheel , finding it entertaining even though it is the same mundane sight all over and over again because it provides the thrill that distracts it .

There are indeed times where , even though it is just for a brief moment , it makes us feel like going through this loop is worth it . They are what we all call it as fond memories. They make a splendid distraction for us in this hell of a life , they let us forget the suffering that we are going through for a teeny weeny bit moment . There are also people that make us be willing enough to go through hell again and again, such as loved ones, friends and family . Our goals are also what keeps us going in this hell loop , our desire to achieve them is so strong that we are willing to risk ourselves for it . Nonetheless, these provide the thrill and distraction that we need , these are our own personal rodent wheel in this endless cycle of suffering and pain. These are the so called " positive side" of life , the "rainbow after every storm" , but in reality, the storm does not end, the "rainbow" is just a mere distraction caused by our own figments of imagination , memories , desire and lust .

But , what exactly is the thing that makes everything worth it ? It is , of course , the experience that we have during our time on each loop . All that we endure , feel , do . Those are what we call as experience , the things that we live and strive for to get , just to reminisce about it when we turn grey and old , when we are on our deathbed .That is what let us think that " Hey, maybe this isn't so bad after all."

Sometimes , we may just be wishing that we can just stay in that moment without moving on because of the joy it brings . But , reality is always harsh and cold , we cannot stay at one place for long, we just have to keep moving forward without looking back.