Try again

Jason was indeed a bit disappointed and felt a bit of regret. Regret that he didn't take the opportunity when it had presented itself. He could have gotten married the next day and held the wedding later. Now he had wasted that chance and had landed himself in this predicament. Jenny saw the changes in his expression and reached out to hold his hand, making Jason look up and face her. "I know this isn't what you expected of our honeymoon and I am sorry for springing this on you, but if you give me two weeks I am sure I can get past this. During these two weeks you can do whatever to get me in the bed and if it doesn't happen, by the end of it I promise we will do it whether I get over my worries and fears or not. That way I will have some time to adjust to the idea and I can let go of my worries about our loved ones knowing about such an intimate detail of our lives. This way you have a finish line and the added excitement of a challenge as you can attempt to seduce me along the way. What do you say Jace? Can you accept that deal? I mean, what are two weeks to the year and a half that you have already been waiting, right?"

But to her surprise Jason answered with a "No." Though Jason would do anything for Jenny and it was true that waiting for another two weeks didn't matter at all, but he knew Jenny and he knew that in two weeks they would be in the same situation as they are right now. So, as he looked up and looked Jenny in her widened eyes he explained his reasoning to her. "Jenny I know you are scared and in a way I am too. It's not just your first time. It is mine as well. So, it is unfamiliar territory for both of us and that is exactly why I know that regardless of whether we do it today, two weeks from now or a year from now, you will still be afraid. We just have to face that fear together and if it doesn't go the way we expected or planned, we can just try again. So many have gone before us and everyone had a first time. If they were all able to do it and want to do it again despite whether it was a good experience or not, we should be able to do it as well and at the very least be able to enjoy coming closer together and having our first experience with someone we truly love and want to spend the rest of our lives with."

He took a deep breath before he continued to share his thoughts on the matter as he prepared to take down Jenny's second 'argument'. "And as for the worries all I can say is, did you forget what you told sophia back when she was worried about the gossip surrounding her pregnancy? How is this any different? Whether we do it tonight or not, people who know about you wanting to save yourself for marriage will assume that yesterday was the night you lost your virginity. So, you would still have your wish of them not knowing when it actually happened. Those who didn't know, assume we have long since done the deed. So, whether it happens tonight or not, only you and I will know the truth and you can tell them whatever you want. But no matter what, I don't want to treat this as some kind of game with a deadline. Either you want to take that step and want to face your fears or you don't. If you don't that is fine as well and I will of course accept that and accept that you are not ready yet. But if you do, I won't be waiting no two weeks. All I will give you is till tonight. So, make up your mind and let me know what you decide. I will be by the pool if you have your answer ready or if you need me." After saying what he wanted to say, Jason got up and left for the private rooftop pool which was exclusive for the people staying in the VIP suites.

Jenny was left speechless at the table and she was staring to where Jason had been seated. She didn't expect for Jason to reject her idea so strongly and with such well thought out reasons. She couldn't refute what he had said at all and deep down she knew he was right. If she hadn't been able to prepare herself for this in over a year, how were two weeks going to change matters. She knew it, but knowing it is one thing acting on it is another. At that moment she regretted that she had pretended to fall asleep last night. If she hadn't, she wouldn't have ended up in this situation. She would have pushed herself through it and she would have been glad for it afterwards. Now that she had 'escaped' once, her body was in flight mode and wanted to run away even more than it did last night. And above that, she had hurt Jason's feelings by lying to him. Something he didn't deserve after all that he had done for her and after he had forgiven her for running away like she had. Those hadn't been her intentions at all. But it had happened and still he was trying to not make her feel pressured. After settling her heart a bit, she got up as well and followed after Jason.