Make me feel something.

Jenny looked back up and into Jason's eyes, who had been listening intently, and continued. This time the roles were reversed and Jenny was sitting on her bedroom floor and Jason was looking down on her from her bed, with his sharp blue eyes not breaking contact. Only now did she feel how nerve breaking this position makes a person. How must Jason have felt when he was sitting on that grass and thinking of proposing to her. Only to be rejected in that way.

"You see, I have never been in a relationship before. I haven't even been in love. Once I marry and commit, I don't plan to get divorced or remarried. Ever. So knowing that, I could not say anything other than no to a proposal that came so out of the blue and after knowing each other for such a short period of time. At least before entering my first and possibly only relationship, I want to experience that feeling. That anxious, special feeling. That longing and nervousness. All at the same time. A feeling of love. A feeling of loving and being loved. So much so that I want to commit to that person for life. I am happy to know that I have allowed you to experience those feelings, but I am not there yet. So if you are willing, I am prepared to have another visit. In a month's time we have spring break. I could come to England in that period or you can come to the Netherlands. In that week we will start again and we will use that week to see if you can make me feel something. Anything other than friendship." Jenny started fidgeting with her hair and looked to the floor as she said this last sentence. Fearing her words might make him regret coming here and still make him give up on this. She gently looked back to Jason, only to find him with the same determined eyes and gentle expression. This gave her the courage to continue.

"And of course to see if you still feel the same by then. It isn't just my feelings that can change over time. So can yours. So, if it is really love, then a bit of time apart should not affect your feelings of wanting to be with me. This way we can make sure that it wasn't just infatuation or a heat of the moment thing. If after that week, we both feel a connection and still want to try getting into a relationship with the intention of marriage, then I am willing to bring my date of moving to England forward and fully go for making us work. If not, then we can at least say that we gave it all we had. By your calculations we would have known each other for a year and a half by then" Jenny laughed as she said this. Jason couldn't help but laugh along at this rambling and excited woman. He was so happy she hadn't completely given up and she was willing to try and make this work. He could see, she was trying to meet him halfway. And could sense a bit of doubt in his feelings as well, which probably scared her. If she wasn't sure if his feelings were real, he would show her. So he agreed immediately. He did make her promise that they would not completely be out of touch in that month. They would video-chat once a week, so that time would go by faster and he would have something to look forward to in her absence."Do we have a deal then, my feisty tigress?" "haha, is tigress my new nickname? But yes, I do think we have reached a consensus my stubborn prince" She laughed as she said these words. Jenny was glad to see the tension from the room was gone. They still had a lot of work to do, but at least now they had a plan.