A blind date

Julia and Jenny met up on a bench in the school garden and had each opened their lunch boxes when Jenny started her questioning. Do you know what happened to Harry? He was looking quite upset this morning, but I recall you telling me that you guys would meet up during the weekend. Did something happen between you guys? Julia frowned as she spoke with a harsh tone. "Nothing happened. He isn't enough of a man to let something happen between us, ché. I am completely done with that guy. In fact I have decided to give him what he has been asking for so long, he can remain single for the rest of his life for all I care. I will search for my happiness with someone else." Jenny was surprised to hear these words. To hear such a change compared to how she was speaking about Harry just a few days ago. Something must have happened. "Why are you talking like that? What happened this weekend for you to be so upset with him?" Julia looked over to see the concern in Jenny's eyes and decided to confide in her.

Julia let out a sigh to calm her emotions before she started telling Jenny about last weekend. She was telling her about how Harry and her had gotten closer since they started talking again after the engagement party. "We had been getting along great. We have been talking in person or over the phone almost every day and we have even been hanging out a few times after school. So this weekend we were supposed to meet up to go on what I thought was a date. We went shopping and everything was going great. We were laughing, he didn't reject me when I held his arm and we even had dinner together. It wasn't until the end of the evening, when he was taking me home, that things turned sour. Before he left I told him about my feelings once more and asked him if he had been able to make up his mind on what he wanted our relationship to be. If he still wanted to remain friends or if he wanted to pursue a romantic relationship with me and he said 'I don't know'. So I asked him what he means with 'I don't know'. What is it that he doesn't know? He replied by saying that he liked me, but he didn't know if he liked me like that. He wasn't ready to commit to me yet.

Despite being disappointed by his answer, I tried to be understanding of his feelings. I was already glad he was trying to see if things would work out, so instead of pressuring him, I tried to figure out what he needed to be able to make up his mind. I asked him many questions. If he wanted to spend some time apart, if he needed more time of us together, what it was that made him question starting a relationship with me. Each time I got another version of 'I don't know'. All he knew is that he didn't know right now and that he needed more time. So I asked him how much time he needed. But again I got a bloody 'I don't know'. This was when I started to get upset. I am not a charity case waiting for someone to want me. There are plenty of people who would kill at the chance to be my boyfriend or fiance and here I was trying to convince this man to try and consider me as option. So I asked him, 'Then how long do you expect me to wait? I don't mind if you can't say you want to marry me, but you should know if you want to be more than friends with me. Or at least know when you will be able to know that. I can't just sit around and wait and pray for you to someday hopefully look in my direction.' After he remained silent I took it upon myself to answer the question and I told him that I would be done waiting and he could contact me once he had made up his mind, if I was still available by then.

My main goal for having you interfere was to stop us from fighting and I hoped that he would be able to see me as I look at him, but it is not like he is the only man in the world. Maybe this was what I needed to get over him. To see this side of him. To see the real him, instead of the man I build him up to be in my imagination. So now I am done. I am done waiting. I am done lowering myself. I am done trying to jump through hoops to get him to notice me. Only for him to say he doesn't know. If he doesn't know, I will find someone who does. In fact I already have a date planned. One of my girlfriends who attends an all girls school has set up a blind date with a group of boys from an all boys school. We are meeting up tomorrow after school. Will you join me?"

Jenny had been listening to Julia attentively, which made her be caught off guard. She moved back a bit from shock. "What do you mean 'join you'. You know I am engaged to Jason and you know what kind of person he is. He would never let me go with you on a group date and if you ask me, I don't think you should go either. You are very upset right now and you just fought with Harry. Shouldn't you give him some time to try and make up his mind?" "So don't tell Jason. It's not like you have to pick someone after the date. I need you there for some moral support. Aren't we friends? I could use a friend during this. I have waited long enough for Harry and I have given him time. From Sunday till tomorrow. If he makes up his mind before then, fine, if not then who knows, this date might actually wake him up!"