1 : Confusionist

We were borne into a pentecostal tribe of church while our parents has Oriental Orthodoxy doctrine but their own parents which is our grandparents had Roman Catholicism doctrine experience. I got my first scary but clear confusion when I realized we have different doctrines for same religion we imbibe just after christ resurrected, I thought we started the religion to continue the legacy he laid. Even as a gen z back in those days we understood that we can interpret something in different languages and it will still have the same meaning and have the same effects, but what I dont understand is even if the holy book is translate to different languages and yet still have the same meaning in words and deeds, then how do we have different doctrines that govern different gathering and it seems acceptable, I mean why do same religion have different ways of serving same God and one seems antagonizing the other?. Ain't even talking about other religion antagonistic of different beliefs, when we were young and naive we were so much believe and love our inherited religion and held unto the doctrine vehemently to the extent we acted dogmatically to every bit of it. This make us to discriminate and condemned other doctrines that is slight different form ours even in our same religion, we thought ours was the perfect and others were not. furthermore in our life's journey we were privilege to attend others gathering and tasted and tested other doctrines that seem to be slightly different from ours, some gave us mixed feelings and some are completely sore to our taste base on the background we were molded, meanwhile some are easy to follow as their own doctrine seem to be different. Now I understand the reason DAX said " I don't want religion, I need that spirituality

I don't want a church, I need people to call a family.

I don't wanna tell my sins to another sinner just because he's got a robe and he went to some academy,

I don't wanna read it in a book, I wanna hear it from you, how I wish God chat with us just the way he did with Adam and eve, I wish I can have divine encounter like the men of old.

Different translations make it look as though we sourcing from accurate source, I'm not sure but I heard there is extra biblical documents which are extracted and remove from the holy book, the question is why was if that statement is true why was it removed and kept with few? Some assume the words in it are so powerful some believe it can be misused based on the strong words and powerful secrets in the contents but some leaders says we should believe in the totality of the words but when some part were kept in the vault could we now call it the totality of the words?. If "All" scripture were given by the inspiration of GOD 2Tim 3:16-17 then don't keep some part aside for some certain people, if the total of 14 books could be removed and hid from the masses then ain't we sourcing from accurate source to give what we want people to see? Also the question is who instructed the removal of the 14 books and who removed it? And why was it removed ? If the instructions is from the almighty tht gave the inspiration that which it was all written then when was the instructions of the removal all this things need to be addressed. We ain't questioning the divinity but we are questioning the humanity, there is a particular question that is flying across the universe but no one or few ones can answer it and yet their answer is not yet convinced majority enough and the question is that , can someone live a moral life that is worthwhile even without being religious or without religion, can you answer that correctly nope but you can introspect and answer it to suit your understanding but that depends on the level of your understanding of the divinity, I once told some people that religion is also a philosophical practice on it own it was just tag or been name as religion because it's a standard set to couple and direct or shape livestyle of people or the follower of the concept and precept in a moral way to live accordingly and appropriately, likewise other philosophical belief has their own ways of thinking and living which suit and portray positive moral standard that must not affect negatively others In a given society. I am the way the truth and the life no one comes to father except through me, Yeshua always speaks alot in parables but we mostly don't know the dichotomy of his words.

To be continued....