Madam Ru
You can look at it in that way, that she is selfish because she chose not to feel. But you can also look at it in another way, because she cares too much, she chose to separate herself because she felt it was already too much for the people that she loves. Of course, now in hindsight, she realizes that she shouldn’t have distanced herself from them emotionally, but isn’t it normal to react as she did?