Chapter 1

Day 10.

Sunday.

High school days are worth getting pissed of each and every single thing. Regular classes, after school tuitions, the cat and mice race of studying to pass and passing to study is such a drag through the diurnal cycle. Although periods in which i got to spent time with the fictional men , always was the loophole of the never ending cycle. Drawn outside the reality, thoughts always played the crisscross game on my mind with the almost impossible imaginations.Will i ever meet someone with Mr Darcy's twisted arrogance? If not at least Hardin Scott's overly attractive morphological features?And with Atlas Corrigan's steadfast humane deportment of course!

Riri nudged,"He's here". And just with that snap, my self made fictional man in my daydream again vanished leaving only the traces of the traits i would obsess over and over again only to leave me with my new obsession in reality.

He came.

As he entered,all the girls eyed him like the tastiest cheese burst he was among all the rotten sausages. I cringed at the idea though. But he seemed so casual to the overly excited bunch of chitchatters who were one step away from getting laid with him on his demand. Maybe that's what happens when you are too rich or too famous or....too attractive.

I wasn't someone highlighted enough among the crowd though and being a bookworm you can also never expect me to hover over someone, no matter how badly I want them.

He looked. Eye on eye.

"Skipped?". Riri snapped her fingers.

I rolled my eyes and said "Nah, why would I care for such a....."

She cut me short saying "Did i say you care?" and smirked.

Fucker. I murmured beneath by breath.He was same as every other funk i have ever came across,my mind typed...but....

You know, there's always a war between what you already know and what you wish to know, the unsaid,unmentioned, unspoken war between the mind and the heart. And like that my heart whispered , No!he was different, you know that, you have the gut feeling, stop shutting it off.

He is Alex. Rich spoiled brat, to be specific with his character. Last Tuesday he joined my physics guide classes, not to study but instead just flaunt about his two wheeler, phone and....his perfect stud appearance with 6'2 hotness dripping off....

Imagine if Hardin's tight torso being displayed in combination with Atlas's affection, or Koslov's height and adamant nature along with Darcy's twisted arrogance.

You are drooling just by thinking about it right?

I saw this combination in front of me, so this was much expected that I would be...beyond obsessed....with him.

I was a pure bibliophile in a class full of people with paraphilias, hence i wasn't known to have many friends. Riri, was on the other hand a pure socialite.Be it a boy or a girl, everyone knew her. Though she didn't throw a feet on responding every one , maybe that's what you call as pride when you are much attractive and too confident about yourself. Riri was my optics partner, but it didn't take more than 72 hours within which she got too close to me, and claimed me as her bestfriend.

Among all the stars in the sky i was her Venus, but...she was the Earth , in my solar system of all other planets....

She knew about my obsession over Alex from the beginning, judging by how much I was interested in knowing about his friends family, his grades , his common playtime, everything. Riri has already asked me to make my first move but my solipsistic nature was always a dominant trait. I wasn't special, i knew that, and on the other point i had this on my subconscious mind that among all the other girls even if i were to ask him out, he would deny me and that's when my ADHD would perfectly feed itself to push me into my anxiety again. Considering all the possibilities till now i have been just eyeing him, and was the only girl in the whole class who didn't care to speak a single word to him, not even a formal intro.

Like Riri was my best friend, Alex too had one and only close friend, Ross, though he didn't quite name their friendship as best friends or something, instead he just shared or spoke with only Ross, about anything or maybe everything.

By now, Alex is familiar with everyone in the class, except me. Maybe that was the main reason.

It has been 18days , and we both have been regularly meeting in the class, however, he was the only one, the only single person, who would have so damn interest in each of my movements. What i ate, whom i spoke to, who were my friends, what i read, each and everything. Usually when someone is interested in you, we can expect that they would be soft towards you. Guess what?

Alex is always polar opposite to what we could generally expect from anyone!!....

Since the last 16 days , he has done nothing except mock me, taunt me , mimick me, and make fun of me in every possible way. A natural disgust....or maybe an interest to know 'why' has taken over me towards this bastard.

I don't bother him, i don't talk to him, i am nowhere in his circle of friends, i don't have his number, as if he doesn't exist to me, that's the attitude i keep when in his radius. Yet leaving everyone else, I was the only one who he was after. I could even describe it as when a lion is after one single deer, he'll run for it no matter how many other deers come in his grasp, he'll chase the one he's interested in.

I wasn't very upfront with speaking my mind out, however everything has a red line in the limit of tolerance. Days passed, nothing changed, at times he used to get on my nerve to the extent that i would start sobbing after class to Riri. Why would he do this? What have I even done to him? Addressing me with the most absurd names possible!! I couldn't help but feel timid to his presence in those class hours. I was bullied, so bad by him.

Eventually 34 days have passed, but..... nothing has changed. He's the same bastard he was on day 1. I have now started to feel so timid in his presence that my dresscode changed. I shifted from wearing a line one pieces to oversized trousers and tshirts. I kept my hair loose as if i tried to cover myself up as much as possible. I stopped coming to class regularly, stopped talking to Riri, wouldn't step out of my room very frequent. My routine changed, i changed. And everything was because of that one single boy.

Why?I don't know.

That night, Ross called me .

"You alright?"

"Yep"

"You aren't coming to the class, why?"

"Doesn't matter..besides why's that any of your concern?"

"You are missing out important lectures"

"I'll manage"

A voice from the back echoed in my ears, which said

"Ask her to come to the class tomorrow, the second last seat of the 5th row would be kept empty where the word 'why' in perfect italic design is curved on the wall next to the seat"

I immediately remembered the symbol i had curved while sobbing to Riri. How'd he know that it was me?

I knew something worse was waiting for me tomorrow again. However i can never let my opponent know about my fear. Hence i decided to revise the notes Riri forwarded over WhatsApp, and prepare for tommorow.