ExistentialVoid
You know I'm similar to this character; I'm also stably depressed. I don't want to do anything. I want to die but I'm scared of pain and I have no motivation to learn, to look for a job, and etc. I just read fanfictions all day whilst depending on my mom. I know it's pathetic but I still don't have any motivations to do anything. Sometimes I think of all the bad things that are going to happen to me like: getting kicked out of the house by my mom, committing suicide by jumping fromn London Bridge, starving to death as a homeless man, jumping down a tall building and etc. I pray a lot to God to find my divine purpose and he doesn't say anything. No intuitive knowledge, nothing. I want to know what I'm talented at so that I have a direction, a purpose for my life but I'm not talented at anything; you can say my talent is average for everything. So.....