SlimeSage
Seriously man don’ t feel bad my grades in math consist of 24s to 54s to finally 65 and I’ m out of college and still pitiful. Hang in there you’re doing fine not everyone can math. Do you take a breather try a tutor but seriou sly with how your fan fiction writing is I‘d say you’ve got real talent in this field so stay at it.
Just dont put hard on yourself. Most of the math lessons from school never be used in real life unless you want to become those scholars or researchers. Also, dont care about to those with perfect scores. In the end, those grades and scores are just something written on the paper. At least you got my favorite number. 69 man you have no idea how I envy you to brag it in front of my friend.
As someone who has had those thoughts at times as well, i can only give you a perspective on why I chose not to follow them. You see no matter how bad it is, if you do commit suicide that’s it. What I mean is that my doing so you have effectively stopped everything, and yes that means whatever bad things are happening stop; but it also ends all possibilities for the better as well. You can’t see the ending to one piece, try some amazing new food, hangout with friends, or cuddle you dog if you’re taking a dirt-nap
You should go talk to someone failure means nothing its just u have to try harder next time u have to improve yourself share your problems with somebody trustworthy who is your well wishes so that u can pour heart out if still u cannot get over it seek medical help go for consultation with psychiatrist there is no shame in that depression and suicidal thought really common in this era