Boundless_
I agree with the mentality of the mc, this is how people really think, we have many ideas, we analyze everything, we put together theories about everything, we imagine the worst outcome of each situation, In other stories we are simply told the final decision of the mc, or when he is observing a woman and thinking about her, they feel quite empty when the they thinks like this, It is true that it is a bit chaotic but we are in a context where the mc is crazy, has all the bad tendencies that a person can have, it is natural that the thought of the mc is chaotic rare and even inhuman.