BigMarch
It's not pathetic really maybe because I am somehow in a similar position just younger than you but I don't feel that you are pathetic in fact I came to admire you more i mean you didn't give up your are still fighting and persistent, and I believe you are in the right way just keep it up and keep moving forward learn from the past but don't let it be a wall that stop you. Thank you very much for the life lessons I too will keep working hard.