Disgrace
Hmmm the first chapter is a hit wonky. The timeline with all the flashbacks feels off because its not indicated its no longer a flashback. Additionally, the mc isn't very likable. He's portaiyed as one of those 'I cut myself just to feel the pain' emo types, and it's given a supposedly pragmatic twist of reasoning by saying its for increasing pain endurance... This all happens in the first chapter as his prelude to the apocalypse. An apocalypse he supposedly dreamed of coming with a red moon, so obviously he knows its the apocalypse at the end of the chapter when he sees it... And his preparation is to cut himself to increase his pain resistance.....