Comments of chapter undefined of Heart of Darkness
Heart of Darkness
JasmineJosef
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Part 2 I think this chapter is so fundamental in so many ways… And once again I find myself feeling so thankful. Of course, I cannot predict anything but just express my hope for the friendship of these two females. I presume Lucrezia is very lonely and has a very tough job. And Angelica… she’s so alone. Women need women around, and I think that in this chapter that is also the point. Lucrezia encouraging Rayven to treat his wife, being friendly to her, asking and offering advice. Helping her feel comfortable in a place where her husband hardly can. Not because he’s uncomfortable but because he’s considerate of her… No one could do that but another female… And she keeps helping him, it almost makes me cry. If after this, he doesn’t notice or acknowledge it… I give up. And then… third most fundamental part. Jasmine, really, thank you so much. Angelica had no choice but to try to survive and settle. And she fought so hard also because however bad things were, she couldn’t bring herself to settle at the same time. Of course, she also had an instinct that drew her to him, made her trust him despite how rude he was, but he behaved so badly that if she had had a choice she would’ve or should’ve left him behind. It’s what, as a friend I would’ve advised. That’s what makes nowadays even worse. We have the freedom that she didn’t have and such incredibly low standards sometimes... Of course, the problem is more complex, we have upbringing, and culture yet again to think about, but it is always something that bothers me big time. As charming as a personal shopper Rayven is, what we need is something else. Respect, a voice, a place, but it won’t happen if we don’t give it to ourselves. The reflection on Rayven being always compared to men who were worse is priceless because this is something we do all the time. The measure of a partner can never come from that. Things that are good in comparison, are they really good or are they just not that bad? Of course, we may have other sorts of problems like unreachable standards that may just be masking something else such as a desire (alien to ourselves) of not being paired, but clearly this isn’t Angelica’s case. And Rayven’s growth, enlightening and expansion through love is bringing out something else. A man they can both respect. The man she dreamed of having is a man that never had the opportunity to emerge and that now, past pride and abuse is being shaped. And that man, Rayven, is the only version of yourself with which you’ll ever be comfortable, as all the others, you hate… As for the rest of the discoveries… Well, we already knew Skender was the prettiest as he’s an Archdemon and the more powerful the Demon, the more striking the beauty, it seems. Vitale is the oldest as we just found out, so after Lucrezia and Skender he’s next prettiest with his fair hair and his golden eyes. Our dear Lord Rayven is the best warrior and the baddiest sin among the baddies but he isn’t the prettiest (and yet he was punished for his vanity) or the most powerful and I actually love that. We have this syndrome that the lead has to be the most of the most… so what if he isn’t? Their beauty and power as it is is already too much and besides we don’t or shouldn’t love them for that. As for Rayven never ever noticing anyone… I don’t find it romantic. I find it sad. It speaks more to how closed he was. There’s always a girl or a boy that we like growing up. I figured his father took care of that. For me this goes along with him not being able to find anyone kind. Before being punished he didn’t care, but after… It’s just not statistically possible not finding anyone kind in 400 years. The problem was his, not what was around. As he said, he was too self-absorbed to notice, so at least he recognizes it now… It shouldn’t take so much but in some cases it does. An extraordinary woman to open up and extraordinarily blind, stubborn broken man. Thanks Jasmine for so much 💕💕
Part one Super interesting chapter. I was glad Angelica moved on from her jealousy/distrust quite fast (although I think we will be seeing more of that, until she an Lucrezia have a good enlightening chat) and was positively surprised by Rayven. For him to be calm and unannoyed around Lucrezia, don’t be mad girls, but I can’t help but find that to be the greatest testament to his radical change. I have been wondering and waiting for the moment when Rayven will finally recognize how much he owes her. Not saying that the moment’s here just yet but this here is already amazing. I think the whole conversation about the mating bond was very meaninguful. As with love, and faith, only those who experience it truly understand it but the more I hear about it, the less differences I find with a “regular” fully committed kind of love… “They say two individuals become mates before mating and that’s when the mating works” said Lucrezia which only reaffirms that the bond is just a seal, as Rayven said. The attraction with which it begins… is no different from what we go through as humans as well. I believe the main difference is not between love and mating but between marriage and mating. When marriage is honored, it is the same but as humans can marry for multiple reasons, imposed political marriages among them, then you find the difference right there. The mating bond is like a marriage where the priest is the bond itself and it sees through the individuals, even through the lies they might tell themselves. If the conditions aren’t right, it will not settle. It’s like if marriage had a self-insurance mechanism and would only be granted to those who truly love each other and are dedicated to one another. As a believer that we need to work through things this leads me to believe that a determined couple might try to mate at some point and not succeed and then succeed later on once certain issues are solved. Not that I believe people should try lightly as it not working may result in making things worse, just tend to think that it takes more than love to make things work. We can love and not trust, for instance. Or love in a very destructive way… I believe the beauty of this idea of the bond is that it seems to seek balance, that both parties are certain and well. That’s why I doubt for instance that a bond among Rayven’s parent would’ve worked.
This was an amazing chapter! I absolutely love how Angelica and Lucrezia are now bonding. Lucrezia will be such a way better friend than Angelica's old, so-called friends! Lucrezia is Angelica's girl crush, lol. I love the whole luch date and how Rayven was teasing Angelica bahahaha. I can not wait for the next chapter! I can not wait for Rayven and Angelica to attend Lucrezia party. Party time! Thanks again, Jasmine!