Eveofchaos
I understand very well, and while I haven't been able to connect with Chaos' Heir on as much on a deep level as BOTDS, the "same same but different" mindset of Khan vs Noah's has honestly been a beautiful reflection and genuinely helpful to read during my personal evolution, in reality. I entirety understand, not the specifics, but the repercussions being overwhelmed and life getting messy all at once, just exactly at the perfectly wrong time. Without spilling my guts, I am currently in a similar boat where my life just took a turn for the better and I'm having a hard time keeping up with it. The rewards of being able to hold onto my current situation are not anything crazy, but fits me and my life wonderfully. It has been a lot more work and effort than ive put into anything in a LONG time and, honestly very hard to maintain. I'm burnt out, scabbed up, got a burn healing, trying to keep on top of everything external, I've been letting myself go, thus making things harder on myself. I've thought about giving up so many times, more times than I have in YEARS (actually, literally JUST BEFORE I stumbled upon BOTDS!), but I want what I have worked so hard to obtain and, I feel the "Noah" in me would choose his pride alone and bail and figure it out alone. However, the "Khan" in me has been taking his two seconds and thinking about the repercussions of giving up and soldiering on. Point being, not only do I love your stories from the heart. You are a beautiful soul and sound like you aim to be just as strong as your work. As an author and the person who I see through your writing, I believe in you and will read your stories, always. I can't say I'm not sad when I open WN to no new chapter, I can say, "I understand life happens. being yourself back to peak and hit us with a banger, as you always do.~~~Success doesn't take a whole lot<, or even a little, success takes EVERYTHING~~~