Oh my dearest empress, I am absolutely understand your feeling.. I also feel exasperated with your twin brother and best friend.. Why can't they be honest toward each other? P.S. I think Meili would be mad at him when she knows about his illness.. Hahaha I imagine she's sulking at her husband about keeping secret from her as she definitely wants to accompany him. Yet, in the same time feeling afraid that he would leave her and Leyan too (like Beixuan).