Comments of chapter undefined of Nine Venoms Sect Founder

I'm not sure I understand what you mean. Are you referring to the mental weed? Cuz that's just trolling. He's not running from anything, but also believes that he can't hold himself accountable for every person hit by a domino effect of his battles with Gods and co. The line about those he directly harmed referred to his past enemies, for whom the tribulation also makes him experience guilt.