Some people says/said that your strong when u cry/cried, after you doing that you have/had the energy to go on and move on, to live your life even if its in pain/pained. Even strong people cried when they cant stand it anymore. It's not bad to cry.
She must be very close with Ying Yue that it was so difficult for her to let go and move on. Losing someone that you really love is not easy. Oh...dear author, you make me tear up as it also reminded me of my own experience.......