Comments of chapter undefined of Imperfect Desires
Imperfect Desires
XiaoMeeHee
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I am not sure there can be enough reason to justify the way Qui Meihui's character has turned. Even Chen Xiu did not get mother's love or for that matter any love since her childhood... still she was an angel. So really there is no justification for Meihui's crooked personality!!
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honestly I'm happy the Xiao li is gonna take care of asteria. growing up in environment with people always yelling at each other is toxic. it does make you a introvert. Xiao li really does care for asteria and meihui doesn't deserve to take care of her. she's the source of the problem. Meihui just wants attention and Dylan's the same way. BUT he acts like a baby and acts spoiled to get the attention. he knows there's limit. meihui just gets mad and takes that angry on other people.
About meihui's condition. I can't say for sure but I had said about it before when the first revealation was done regarding meihui's true nature. In the chapter where ying and meihui had quarreled at Qiu's house. At that time I just tried to see why meihui would have turned that way. To some people it must have sounded like a justification but let me say it again. Let me repeat it is just a speculation. I think meihui's condition is like this due to the environment she has grown. I meant not zhao wei and her husband. But her friends like liu and other girls. As mee-hee had said in a chapter that zhao wei had been close to ying since their childhood. And I guess there was some problems in between wei and her husband which dylan sometimes had talked but mee-hee haven't talked about it much. Let me guess that the problem between qiu couple was when they were small. We don't know much about meihui's childhood. We have information about her from her 16th birthday where author told us that she had created a scene where she made ying apologize to her. I am assuming she must have witnessed her parents quarrel and also maybe the dispute between her mother and aunt? At those times with whom do you think she would have shared her thoughts? her pain? With her mother whom she is not close? With her father who I guess wasn't living with them? With her brother who wasn't mature enough? She must have felt lonely. And did I said that nothing is more dangerous than the mind of a lonely person? Because they can think anything in their mind, anyone can feed their mind with anything. And they don't have anyone with whom they can share this, who can show them the right path. And then their comes the society. The root of all evil. One of the best way to turn even a saint to demon. The case of Chen Xiu. It is even more dangerous when people like liu nuan are around you. I guess these must be the critical factors for meihui's conditon. I am saying this because I know how tough it is to keep yourself sane in this insane world. Especially when you are tackling all of these alone. I guess no one can know about it more than myself. Because I have went thought this and still going through this. Even sometimes I wonder how I am holding my inner demons. I guess this virtual words is the one which is helping me. Since, I ables to distance myself from the real world. Nope, it's nothing serious. At least now I have abled to overcome it. It was worse at some point. Where I was living but wasn't aware of my surrounding and what is happening in my life. I know because I have lost 5 years of my life. When I look back I can't help but regreat. Why I was in a delusion? Why I didn't notice it sooner? But I can't even blame anyone since all of the fault lies with me. Because I am the one who let it happen to me. I am the one who let those words affect me. Who let the delusion turn bigger until I forgot who I am and what I am. It was so hard to get out of that dark vine. It's still there but at least it can't stop me anymore. I have accepted it as a dark past of mine about which only I am aware. Oh nope I guess I have told about it to the person who was the innocent victim of it. The person because of which all of that happened yet he has no hand in it. Weird right? But it truth. I am lonely. Even though everything is around me I can feel no one besides myself. Sometimes it makes me feel scared. Scared of myself. But right now all of those doesn't matter. What matter's to me is my dream and my goal. My goal right now is my carrier, my studies and my hobbies which once used to make me happy. I am trying to return back to my past self. But I know I can't. Because that girl is long gone. What I can do is create a new me where both my past and present can live together harmoniously within me. I have made a peace with myself like Xiu. Ah.... where did I end up when I was talking about meihui. Sorry, for this long post. You guys don't need to read it.
