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She was 12. She was a child herself. I don’t know about other parents but I would never leave a child all by themselves like that, let alone making them in charge of a much younger sibling. Let them learn about responsibilities = Yes but with supervision. There’s a saying concerning children = “All it take is seconds away to lose your child” be it accident or kidnapping. You should never let go of your hand on your child or let your eyes strays or let yourself be far away from reaching distance.
I was wondering too why she's so desperate to proved herself. Turned out she only want to buried her past. I think her trauma won't go away like, forever. Just like you said at the author notes, her trauma won't go away, ever. If I'm in Yujia's shoes, I also don't think I can do that. Imagine it, it's my brother who died because of me. How can I laugh? How can I eat? It's a horrifying feeling haunting you, you kept saying yourself you are a murderer. How can you not stress of it? I do think Yujia really strong. She still could find her passion in art and thrived to do her best but in the end, she's just a human and she surely would face the trouble. I can feel how the past really shaped Yujia that I read here. I only said it now but I felt like Yujia really shield herself from outsiders. She's very careful, calculative with every move she made. It's like, she scared of failing. Well, Yujia might not be the most charming female protagonist with countless halo, or peerless beauty or like, the top secret agent aka assassin or doctor on usual transmigration novel trope but she's so human. I think that's why I keep charmed on your novel and really loved it 😍
Another great chapter. Even if Yujia still has her trauma I respect her even more. Not being over her trauma does not mean she is weak, fragile maybe but not weak. In the midst of this kind of break down being able to act shows Yujia's inner strength. I hope she can find a way to get past such a traumatising experience. As for her parents I can't help but disapprove. I understand that all humans have weaknesses but if Yujia's view of her parents (not merely Yujia's guilt explaining their behaviour) is right then they've done too much damage. Her words imply that even before her brother's birth she felt undervalued as a daughter and then after his death she was treated like a downright sinner. Forever having to fight to prove her worth will produce insecurities which leads to defensiveness, a need to build up herself and a barrier to taking criticisms well. Not to mention that Yujia doesn't actually seem to believe in herself and holds negative emotions towards herself because of that incident. If this is the case then I'm really angry at her parents. At least right now Yujia is learning to grow and hopefully love herself. Some shadows will never fully disappear but I wish Yujia the best.
Yujia's character is practical, down to earth - has her own faults & halos & learning moments. Though many readers MAY read (as a relaxation or escape from life stress & realities) - building a MC character that elicit sympathy & empathy is also great - experiences that readers may relate. Kudos to you author - gifting you a balloon. *^▁^* ∩__∩
Its very good author that you show a real picture of mental health and trauma Tho to Yuija and everyone else, she needs help. Trauma or an issue of mental health doesn't go away by itself. And sure, Yuija is indeed strong. And she was strong until she broke and killed herself. Yuija needs help to deal with the experience and to learn how to take care of herself and carry on and hopefully forgive herself and her parents. Yuija may never "be done" dealing with the death of her brother, but she still needs to deal with it, and to do that she needs help
Yujia may not be totally over her bad experience yet - but who doesn't have scars or traumas in life? Facing it is her first step - recovering this 'buried' memory may break or build her - her decision. If we allow memory to define who we are - we'll never break through - move forward, learn & grow. Praying for you Yujia......... Your building another layer behind Yujia character is great Author 👏👏👏.
Very accurate portrayal of trauma again! She’s definitely not over this trauma already (as someone with ptsd, I wish it was that easy). I can sense this becoming a pretty big plot point. Ptsd doesn’t always go away, and it can take a long time and a lot of work to build up enough coping mechanisms to manage it.
Her backstory is truly heart breaking and brought me to tears. How come parents were so unsupportive? Dear author this was one of the best chapter so far for me. You have portrayed her pain and trauma so wonderfully!! After such traumatic experience and being abandoned by her parents must be too painful for her and no matter how strong a person is, will surely break down!! A very long and so well written chapter. Thank you dear author!