Juvenile Period: The present
-"There are many things that I don't understand and that I have simply stopped making sense of since I was reborn in this body, one of the things would be the person in front of me."
Grandma placed my head on her legs like a pillow while her large breasts obstructed the image of her face.
- "Women should lose firmness but my grandma her body looks 30 years old and her face 90 those things should be the size of my head, how do you hide this body in your kimono?"
-Kai-chan is something wrong?
-Nothing grandma
Stroking my head with her hand, I felt the softness of her fingers.
Grandma didn't change the tone of her voice sounded very impartial.
-"Just like Kizuna, she doesn't show any emotion"
- You are always very distracted, but these days I have noticed that you are more distracted than usual, tell me kai-chan what is wrong with you?
- "So you notice huh?"
His other hand started to run it over my ribs looking to tickle me.
-Confess kai-chan, I won't be responsible for the consequences that may happen to you.
-It's...nothing....
Feeling my grandmother's touch I start to feel a tingling in my body.
-Bad children should be punished.
-Jahajahaja
-Take this
-Jahajaha...*ohp*
Using her other hand, Grandma bent down enough to start smothering me with her chest, dropping her full weight.
-"Grandma get up, I can't breathe."
- You won't get away from me
-*ahj* "Listen to me grandma I can't..."
My hand landed on her chest drawing a small moan from my grandmother.
-*Ahh!* You are so naughty Kai-chan.
- "It's impossible I can't talk."
Dropping more of her weight I begin to feel short of breath.
-You must obey your elders
-"Father, into your hands I commend my spirit hoping that you will receive me wherever you are."
I stop struggling and collapse my body completely.
-Kai-chan?
...
-I'm sorry I didn't mean to do that to you.
Grandma dogeza* dropping her whole forehead on the ground stretching her arms out so that her breasts held her weight in the air.
-*ahj* Calm down...*ahj* grandmother
With my breath coming in short gasps I was sitting in an armchair.
-I meant to make you laugh and talk to calm you down I didn't want to smother you....
Raising his forehead from the floor his tone of voice and expression had not changed but the position of his eyebrows looked more droopy.
- "I wonder if my sister will become just as gullible?" No harm done but....
-But...
Grandma stood up and brought her face very close to mine.
-I've had nightmares of silly fears....
-Silly?
Nodding at grandma's question, I slowly lowered my gaze.
-I dreamt .... that I was chased by many horses .... I am afraid of being chased.
- I understand
Shaking out her nightgown, grandma sat down next to me.
-Why?
-It's simple, it's scary to look those animals in the face and not know what they are thinking.
- No, that's not what I was asking Kai-chan
Looking up, I looked directly into my grandmother's eyes.
- I ask why do you consider it silly?
- Nobody is afraid of horses
- You are right
Still confused my grandmother put her arm around my neck to pull my body closer to her side and put my head to the side.
- Nobody is afraid of horses...
-I kn...
- However, we are all afraid of what they might do to us.
Running her fingers through strands of my hair, my grandmother's calm tone sounded more serious.
-If you don't understand my point I will explain it to you more simply Kai, I am afraid of the dark, did you know that?
-No
- But I'm not afraid of the dark, I'm afraid of not being alone in the dark especially if the lights go out and I'm in a room resting.
Caressing the side of my face with her fingers, my grandmother leaned her head on top of me.
- I guess you weren't running alone in your dreams
- Yes, I was... there was someone and I was cornered by those animals...
- It must have really scared you to know that something was wrong with the other person Kai-chan.
Nodding slightly at grandma's affirmation, she uses both her hands to caress both parts of my face.
-But that's how fears are Kai-chan, the situation may be strange but we all imagine the consequences in horrible ways but you are brave knowing this because you want to face it.
-Yes...
-But tell me Kai-chan since when do you have dreams like this?
-Since I turned 8 years old
Grandma hugging me completely bends down to lean her face against mine.
-Kai-chan... don't you want to sleep with grandma today?
-I would like to...
Holding her arm with my hands
- Sleep with everyone
- Ehhh...
Grandma looked down and her eyes began to tremble.
- But...there's Ritzuko with everyone.
- Are you afraid?
I put one of my hands on her face close to mine.
- When we are afraid we imagine the consequences in horrible ways. You must be brave grandma, even if I don't know what your fear is, I know you can do it.
-It's unfair Kai-chan....
Kissing my forehead my grandmother gets up from the chair and shakes my hand.
-To use my words against me... but you are right
-Grandma...
-Let's all go to sleep as a family
Taking her hand I get up from the couch to start walking to the side.
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POV Kirijima Ritzuko
-So mom, we're leaving now
My son Kaito was at the door with his sister Kizuna and a girl named Saeko dressed in their school uniforms.
-Take care of yourselves, don't forget that I love you children.
~We love you too~.
Sending them air kisses they reciprocated as they walked to the street.
- "There have been a lot of surprises this week."
Closing the door I walked down the hallway of the house.
-"My son has been very restless this last month but he has calmed down since a week ago".
Arriving in the kitchen I looked at the pink bento that was open.
- "My mommy came home and I think she calmed my son down, he seems less distracted now but..."
Starting to wrap the pink bento on the table I felt my face stiffen.
-"He's closer to my mommy now, plus now he's not afraid to be around me anymore."
-Daughter
Without making a sound my mother appeared next to me dressed in a purple kimono.
- Mommy you must talk you hide your presence too much
- Really?
- I'm not used to you doing that anymore, you almost scared me.
My mother looked at the ceiling making a gesture with her fists to indicate her approval.
Looking into my eyes, she didn't make any expression, but she was pulling her cheeks down, and she put her hands into the sleeves of her kimono.
- I have been very bad to you these last 12 years, I was afraid that you will reject me after the birth of your first daughter, sorry for giving you these genes....
-Mommy...
Leaving the bento I approached my mother to hug her.
- I've never disliked the way you are but you didn't have to be so distant with us, you know?
- I have never wanted to be distant with anyone Ritzuko but I dislike being like that.
Caressing a part of her head she felt her breathing regulate.
- There are many things that we can't change but I'm surprised that you want to go back to the relationship we had before.
-It's true...
My mother was silent for a moment and then she separated from me.
- I read the letter your husband left you last night that you were not in your room, how to say it? it's sad.
- Well he never knew how to consider my feelings so I'm used to it.
Looking for something in her sleeve she looked into my eyes.
- There's not much we can do but I would like to give a present for my grandson he didn't get two gifts from his father like his sisters.
- What do you mean?
- My granddaughters got things for them to wear at a certain age some earrings and more accessories but Kai got just a t-shirt.
Taking out an amulet bag with a simple kitagram written on it 'grandma's luck' (祖母の幸運)
-I can only do this for now I will give her the present when she turns 18.
Smiling fully I hold my mother's hands.
-I'm sure she'll be happy when you finish this present.
- Of course she will
(Without noticing the presence the two women were being watched by a cat-like figure that looked like mist).
~Meow~
(The figure turned to the window to see an old woman slowly pass in front of the house and began to chase after her, fading completely out of the room.)
Note:
Dogeza (土下座): an element of traditional Japanese etiquette that involves kneeling directly on the ground and bowing to prostrate oneself while touching the ground with the head.