Prologue: Dreams of the distant Past
Whoo" I sighed as I stare at the endless void,
Concepts like time and space itself melts and cease to exist here
Why?" He wonders
Why is he alive or maybe not
"It seems like im not moving or rather I cannot move" its obvious as space and time here doesn't exist yet his conciousness still lingers
Supposedly anything that was send outside of their "narratives" simply ceased to exist as they will be devoured by the primal nihility, their history, self and conciousness melted and combined with the nonexistence
He(mc) wonders how much "time" has passed before he was just send into this "place" yet no matter how much he counts he keeps on forgetting the second that he tries to remember
Yet he still remembers his past before he was here
He was just a normal highschool kid maybe a bit of a nerd as he liked things related about the universe
He is also a bit of lazy which make him look like a dick to his family
And now he can't see them forever(?)
He wondered about it earlier
Religious people prays and follow commandments and go to heaven while those who revel and bathe in sins will go to hell
Atheist believe that there is no heaven or hell just nonexistence and you "self" ceasing to exist
"Maybe atheist are going somewhere" he thought
Then he thought about his life again
He now regretted that he did not do many things in his life
Yet he can only eat dust
He wonders if he will be stuck here forever…..
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He sleeps
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And sleeps
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He did not care about anything for now
Or why he should care
If there is nothing you could do
Are you motivated to do something new?
Your purpose is irelevant now that you don't exist
Because of existence that you have been given such purpose to go through life
Buy what if it's the reverse
The You don't exist
That is his dilemma
He doesn't exist yet his conciousness still lingers in this eternal void
A contradiction
A paradox
As such with no task
Loneliness
Suicidal and psychotic tendencies
Thirst for something new
The need of life
The guilt of being unfullfiled
Depression
All of it stuck in one point in his soul
Ohh I forgot to tell you
He is just a soul
A translucent wisp in the vast oblivion
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During his "sleep"
He can hear something
How?
Concepts like sounds simply gets devoured by the void
He opens his "eyes"
The eyelids crack and found a light pass through his spiritual retinas
It should be imposible
How could light exist here
Then when he opens it fully
He was baffled by what he was seen
There is a light
It seems to be going in straight line
Wait no…
iT seems to be bending in all of directions
Now its moving chaotically
Swirling spiral
Upside down sphere
Circle shaped square
Its shape contorts into something that humanity cannot comprehend
But he is different
Rather than madness
He is in glee
Maybe this is his chance
Maybe this light is his saviour
So he didn't care
Using his metaphysical hands to touch it
He wants to reach for it
Like a moth attracted to a flame
And so he tried
But he remembers that movement is useless here
Yet he hope
And hope
And hope
And he moves
He did not notice it until now
Something impossible
Moving in something which space doesn't exist
Because of a desire
a desire as bright as the light that he wish to touch
a desire imeasurable
and that is
"to live"
It took a second till he reach it
Finally close to his palms
Then he touch it
Something happens
The erratic like shines brighter than before
Till it washes over his existence
And so our mc disappeared from the void
lIke a melody carried by the wind
