2 A talk with the goddess... --------------------------------------

"are you done now?"

I was asked if I was done crying now, I looked at Aria-sama's face and looked back down.

Thinking about it, it's kind of embarrassing of how I cried with Aria-sama embracing me the whole time.

"fufufu its okay you know~"

No it's still embarrassing, I slightly puffed my cheeks storing air inside, and perhaps watching me and also hearing my thoughts of embarrassment just made Aria-sama giggle a lot more.

"here want to eat?"

She passed me a cookie and of course I accepted it without any hesitation.

I then stared nimbling into it like a chipmunk. The cookie was in fact delicious, paired it with the warm milk it was so tasty.

"glad you like it~"

After giggling, Aria-sama returned to her seat and started eating some snacks together with me.

"Aria-sama."

"hmm what is it?"

"about the isekai thingy...."

"what about it?"

"I read stories about getting isekaid and getting reincarnated as a newborn baby or monster, or just getting transported with the same body and age and sometimes its possesion of another body. So which one will I going to be?"

"ohhhh that one~"

This is very important for me, after all, I will be transported into an unknown world and of course the body will be important since its will decide on how will I live and blend in among the residents there.

"actually I already thought about it too but... can you answer a question of mine first?"

"hmmmm?"

I tiltled my head, puzzled to what Aria-sama going to ask me.

"will you help a girl who was having the same life you once had from before?"

Upon hearing her question, I was caught stunned and speechless for a moment.

Hmm....

A girl who also had a life like me? Does that mean that girl is also being ignored like I was?

A life full of loneliness and sorrow... A life where jealousy will appear.

Is she also experiencing that kind of life?

Since I also experienced it, I can't help but imagine how hard it was for that girl.

And now...Aria same wants me to help that girl.... 

hays.....Fine.

I will help then... For some reason, I can't just bring myself to ignore that. It's leaving a bad taste on me. 

"so is that a yes?"

A little bit reluctant but I nodded my head to Aria-sama.

"Sure then....But back to my original question ..."

I'm wondering about what does that have to do with the body of mine?, wait could it be that I will be replaced with that child body. Or as if possesing it.

"no~"

Then we will be sharing the body? , I mean like two souls inside a body?.

"also no~"

Then what is the connection of that with the topic of my body? I'm really confused right now.

And with Aria-sama finished from giggling, she turned to me and explained.

"Actually your first answer was quite close, but the one that will be the vessel for your soul is her doll."

"A doll?"

Why a doll?

I was dumbfounded trying to think of a answer.

For my body to be a doll, won't that be difficult, I mean I will be small, and a doll body dont move usually right?

And even if that doll body has the ability to move, won't that just make it more creepy and scary?

It's creepy, I watched some of it from Tv and of course there are also many stories about haunted dolls back at earth, and the most common reaction to that is the word creepy.

"fufufu don't worry about that, I'm pretty sure that you will have the skill to humanise"

A skill huh?, then that can help me turn into a human right?

"yes, well even if you do humanise, your main body is still of a doll."

Then what about my senses, can I eat? Can I taste flavor?

I'm a bit anxious to not be able to eat delicious food again. I mean who wouldn't want a good and delicious food.

"you can taste them when you humanise. But to be honest, there is no need to eat with that body,"

basically I'm just an object that has no need to eat or drink, but what about the rest?. Will my body get tired. What about the feeling of the skin?

"your body wont need to take a rest but you can still sleep if you want to~ well Physical exhaustion and mental exhaustion is different so you will be taking a rest for your mental health."

"hmmm"

"and for skin contact, you will be able to feel those in humanoid form. Ohh btw, your body is resistant to pain~"

"why?"

"just a bonus trait from being a doll~"

After hearing about the other stuffs regarding my body, all that I could say is that the body of a doll is really confusing. But there are a good numbers pros of having a doll's body so I guess it balance out.

"so yeah and by the way, your magic and skill will take time to transfer to your body so keep that in mind."

"got it...."

Now that I have a brief understanding of my soon to be new body, there is nothing more to ask about that subject, well for now atleast.

"so the next topic is to how you will live your life."

I nodded again because of my curiosity, I already a sense that I will be with that girl since I'm her doll. But other than that, I dont have any plans yet.

And with that I said, Aria-sama then started explaining to me about that world.

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After explaining to me about the world, I kind of understand the new world for now.

It's plainly chaotic.....

Violence, killing, kidnapping and slavery are common, even without magic humans are always subjected to those.

In this world, Aria-sama informed me about the other races excluding the human race. There are elves, demons, dragonkin, fairies, demi humans and a bunch of others too.

Demi humans doesn't really get along with humans, and humans tend to want to get along with the Elves but the elves in return only find them as annoyance.

And most of the Elves are women so I think they find humans very disturbing.

As for the demons of course, they are also against the humans.

It is indeed a chaotic world, I can't also help but sigh to it.

"well you could do whatever you want but don't get overboard."

Yep that sounded of how that world literally works. But what I'm more curious about is the common occurrence of murder.

Does this world have a rule for killing?

"there is but the order of peace is not that very proper which is why~.."

Aria-sama smiled at me but this time it felt scary.

"which is why, you can also kill others if you want to~"

Wait what did she just say to me, I'm pretty sure that I heard it correctly, but let me just ask her again.

"kill??."

"you can ~ I'm not stopping you, after all, killing people sometimes is much more better than letting them off~"

"is killing a bit too much~"

"not at all but you should learn to control yourselves regarding to that. Make sure you don't get overboard with it just like what I said earlier ~"

I nodded and looked down again. This other world is way too much chaotic, And how can Aria-sama just recommend killing a person off as if nothing, I mean she is a goddess right? Wouldn't she normally say that killing is bad?

" I'm a goddess you know~"

"I know,"

"but specifically, I'm the goddess of Death."

"ehhh??"

That is so different from her appearance, I thought she may be a goddess of peace or love since to how she treated me earlier.

Not to mention, her appearance is really different for a goddess of death from my imagination.

"I don't know if you are complimenting me or what."

"sorry...."

"it's okay I understand why anyway ~"

Aria-sama then continued eating the snacks in front of us.

As for me, I still feel a bit complicated about killing. But I will eventually do it someday whike I'm at the other world.

"don't think about it too much. Do it only when you feel you need to. That's all there is to it~"

"okay...."

If Aria-sama says so then I will just accept that for now. I looked at the snacks that Aria-sama is eating right now.

Seems tasty.

I then resumed eating together with Aria-sama, when we ate together again, it was as if all the serious conversations that we talked about a while ago seems like a normal chat.

And like that, time flew by and I was taking a rest from eating.

I ate a ton and I'm really anxious if I will get fat because of this.

"don't worry about that~ after all you will be a doll, and what you eat will only turn to mana after it enters your stomach."

"yeah you did say so a while ago."

.....

.....

And several minutes have passes and I'm feeling all good again.

"by the way. I think it's about time for you to go now?"

"ehhh??"

I'm getting comfortable at this place, I think this will be one of my favorite places and I feel cozy here.

I'm not gonna lie but I feel like not wanting to leave yet, I dont want to go yet... If possible i want to stay a bit more longer.

"fufufu is that so?"

I widely open my eyes as I forgot about how Aria-sama can read my mind.

Ahhh what am I even saying, this is so embarrassing. Ahhhh is this my selfishness?.

With that, Aria-sama giggled again and stood up.

Following that was the disappearance of the chair behind her and table in front of me.

I also felt that my chair moved for a bit, I reflexibly looked at it and saw that my chair stretched out forming a structure similar to a bench.

"suprised?"

"yes.."

"fufufu~ well there is no helping it you know~"

Aria-sama walked closer to me and sat down besides me. I wonder what she is up to this time.

I was curiosly looking at her, and she then looked back at me with the gentle smile.

"do you want to lie down at my lap?"

"ehhhh? huh?"

That caught me by suprise , she is inviting me to use her lap as a pillow.

But no, I don't think that it's okay for me to do that.

I was reluctant to accept it, just who am I to lie down on a goddess lap anyway.

"its okay you know, besides, I think I will be a bit disappointed if you didn't accept."

She is looking at me with a sad expression.

...

If she is thinking that it will make me feel guilty then she is absolutely right. I hate it to admit but it works.

"that's cheating..."

"you still won't??"

Ahhh please stop looking at me with those eyes.

You know what, I will just give up resisting and do what she wants me to do.

I slowly lied myself down and carefully rested my head on top of her legs.and surprisingly its so soft.

"here. You are satisfied now right?"

"yes I'm truly am~"

She was giggling as I just pouted my mouth.

.....honestly I wonder why I feel so comfortable around her.

Well she is a goddess after all so maybe it was normal for her to have that kind of gentle air around her.

or maybe that may not be the reason for it.

I can't find any reasons to why I felt cozy and safe around her but I just gave up thinking about it.

Now she just kept stroking my hair very gently. Honestly, She is too good at it.

If only she was my mother, I think I will like that more.

"fufufu."

I kept hearing her relaxed and soft giggling sounds, and I didn't find it annoying or noisy.

This is too blissful, I wonder if I will feel this again. After that I realised something.

Is this the only time I will be Aria-sama like this? Will I return here too if I want to?

....

Wait am I feeling lonely perhaps?.

"Aria-sama...."

"yes?"

"can I come back here and see you again?...."

I really feel like I want to come back here and talk with Aria-sama. But Aria-sama is a goddess so wont that mean that she is a busy person?...

I think I'm becoming to greedy and selfish here....

"sure you can~all you need to do is pray to me and with that we can form a communication~I can also tell you if I'm free with that communication~"

"ehhh?"

"what do you mean by Ehhh??... Aren't you the one who asked for it first?"

"I thought you will reject...."

"fufufu that's just your imagination you dummy...."

"I'm not dumb...."

"fufufu..."

I pouted again but then it turned into a small smile. I'm glad that I will still meet with her.

I let myself be petted by the warm feeling. And of course I can feel that Aria-sama is smiling.

A little more longer, a little more.

I will be ready to go later but for now I want to be with her like this.

And with this, several more minutes passed. And I didnt moved an inch from this position.