Chapter Five

ᴛʜɪs ʙᴏᴏᴋ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴀɪɴs ɪɴᴄᴇsᴛᴏᴜs ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ʙᴇᴛᴡᴇᴇɴ ᴛᴡɪɴ ʙʀᴏᴛʜᴇʀs ᴀɴᴅ sᴇxᴜᴀʟ/ᴍᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇs.

ᴛɪᴍᴇs ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴀᴛᴇs ᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴᴇᴅ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪs ʙᴏᴏᴋ ᴅᴏᴇs ɴᴏᴛ ᴀʟɪɢɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɢ ᴘʟᴏᴛ, ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ɪᴛ ɪs ᴍʏ ᴏᴡɴ ᴛɪᴍᴇʟɪɴᴇ

ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢ: ʟɪᴍᴇ

ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪs ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ!!

°°°

Kiyoshi, who just got in his dorm, immediately went to the bathroom to take a short relaxing bubble bath. After 15 minutes, he finished taking a bath and changed into one of his comfy yet cute clothes before cooking a dinner for himself so he wouldn't have the urge to eat outside and waste anymore of his money. At exactly 6:30 pm, Kiyoshi went out of his dorm and walked to the park near the dormitory.

Just as he got there, he already saw Ryuen with his bodyguard. Kiyoshi then walked up to them witha a small smile. While Ryuen who got notified by his guard, looked at Kiyoshi's approaching figure and for the first time he was stunned at Kiyoshi's appearance. Kiyoshi wore an oversized pastel blue shirt, white shorts underneath the shirt, and white Chuck 70 De Luxe Heels.

"Ryuen-san! Let's go now. I still have things to do after this" Kiyoshi said after he stopped in front of the stunned male. His soft voice snapped Ryuen out and when he realized that he was gawking at him, he felt his face go warm.

"Y-yeah of course. Let's go now. You look stunning by the way, kitten~" Ryuen said as he leaned over, after getting rid of his flustered state. Kiyoshi blushed and looked anywhere except Ryuen's figure and Flirty gaze, before pushing his face away with his hands.

"Shut up baka! Let's go now! Hmph!!" Kiyoshi said before crossing his arms and turned away from him. Ryuen chuckled but let it go and started walking away and Kiyoshi followed with a faint frown on his face.

'ugh hopefully my persona wouldn't break. It's not like I hate the person, I just don't want to be touched physically or someone to invade my personal space. Only he could do that'

And so, Kiyoshi spent almost over hour buying what Ryuen wants. During that time, Ryuen tried every means to make him flustered, either by compliments or tricks like the famous kabedon. Of course he blushed but he always pull away from him since he was getting uncomfortable.

So when they're done, he just said gave him his number since Ryuen asked, he said his farewells and left. He didn't want to be with him any longer and not only that, he started to feel off. Not because of Ryuen's advances but something else.

As he was walking back to his dorm, he started trying to remember if something or someone was off around him during the whole hour. However he didn't see anything or anyone off the whole time. So even if his senses tells him that something is off, he ignored it. Not a smart decision but he really couldn't figure it out.

When he got back into his dorm, the sun had already set and he was very tired. So he took another bath, and went to sleep. However instead of a dreamless sleep, he was greeted with something unexpected.

—𝐊𝐢𝐲𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕

"Who really are you?" Kiyotaka asked, his voice laced with hostility and threat. His gaze filled with despair and hatred stared down at me,which made me trembled in fear

"I-it's me, Kiyoshi–ack!!" I confessed shakily but I yelped as I felt that I was pushed down, painfully and my neck got held by Kiyotaka. I felt my eyes sting and began gasping, trying to breathe. I looked up once again and saw Kiyotaka's hate filled eyes.

"Don't lie to me. He's dead. Why are you pretending to be him?! I f*king loathe it! Imitating him and his every move. It makes me boil and the urge to kill you increase everytime I see you!"

"I-It's....m-me....Taka-nii....I'm...really...sorry..for leaving...you–ack!" I choked once again as Kiyotaka's grip got tighter, tight enough to make me cry in pain and gasp for dear life. I don't want to die, not yet.

"Even if it's you then why just come back? You've made me suffer all those years for nothing?! Now you think that if you come back everything will be the same!! You're dreaming. If you're really him then you must know that once I' m hurt or betrayed, I'll forever remember that and never forgive you"

Kiyotaka's grip got tighter and tighter, making me struggle while I tried to beg for forgiveness. I couldn't breathe. I need to breathe. I don't want to die by his hands and stain his hand with blood. I also still want to be with him even if it's just from afar.

I can see my vision started to have black spots and I started feeling more lightheaded. I gripped his wrists, trying to at least weaken his grip, to let me breath.

*Crack*

—𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐏𝐎𝐕

– April 08 2026 [12:05 am]

Kiyoshi sat up quickly, his whole body sweating even though it's not hot, his eyes wide with fear and his whole figure trembling. He slowly moved and hugged himself, every part of his dream still made him tremble as if its reality.

The same dream he kept having every night, after he settled down within the Lawless Family. The main reason he is so hesitant to confess to Kiyotaka. Afraid that he'll be looked with hatred once he did, he can handle other people but if it's Kiyotaka who hates him, to the point of wanting to kill him, he can't.

He rather live away from Kiyotaka and let him move on from him. Have a family of his own and forget about him, since he felt unworthy of him after he hurt him and left him alone, mourning for nothing. However his other self craves for his attention, his love, his presence, his voice and his touch.

Kiyoshi buried his face onto the blankets and let out his muffled cries. Desperately trying to imagine a positive outcome if he ever admitted about his identity towards Kiyotaka but it was always taken over by the constant nightmares.

— April 10 2026 || Friday

— Class 1-D

Inside classroom 1-D, students kept quiet as they looked at Kiyoshi, who had puffy eyes and dark circles, sleeping on his desk frowning. Everyone felt worried even if they had little interaction with Kiyoshi, they knew he was a happy go lucky and adorable guy.

So seeing him down, obviously sleep deprived, and frowning everytime he closes his eyes and tries to sleep, made them feel terribly worried well for most students. Some just looked at him or ignored him but majority of them is worried about Kiyoshi.

The bell rang for the start of class and this woke up Kiyoshi. He jumped from the sound, making everyone look at him worried, including Kiyotaka who turn around to look at him, worried.

"I'm sorry, everyone. I just had a terrible nightmare" Kiyoshi said and unknowingly his hands hand began combing through his messy hair. A gesture that seems normal, except for Kiyotaka.

The class started and everyone turned to themselves, leaving Kiyoshi alone who slept again but the nightmare kept hunting him. It wasn't like this before but because he can see Kiyotaka everyday, the nightmares occurred much more frequently.

However unbeknowst to him, Kiyotaka asked Kiyoshi's seat mate to switch seats and when they did, Kiyotaka hesitantly comb through Kiyoshi's hair, and he immediately saw the expected result. Kiyoshi's frowning face and tensed body relaxed and he even let out a soft smile.

The reaction solidified Kiyotaka's assumption. He continued combing through his hair while half heartedly listening to the teacher and writing with his other hand. Others who saw what he did saw a peaceful atmosphere between the two and wondered when did they got close.

This continued until lunch break. Kiyotaka, who decided to rush to buy his own lunch and come back, is now effing while contemplating if he should wake Kiyoshi up or not. However the though of Kiyoshi missing a meal greatly disturbed him so he hesitantly hook him awake.

Kiyoshi woke up with a yawn, but his body felt relaxed and his nightmare forgotten. He was still sleepy, but he felt stuffy so he took off his mask, breathing in relief, he slowly notice a gaze stuck on him. He completely woke up and saw Kiyotaka who stared at him with slightly wide eyes, this made Kiyoshi's fear spike up and panic took over his whole body.

He immediately stood up and ran out of his seat, getting everyone's attention. Kiyotaka was surprised but he immediately chased him towards the males bathroom. Thankfully when he got in, there was no one except a single locked stall, which where Kiyoshi is.

He stood still in front of the locked stall, hearing nothing except for the chatters of students outside the males bathroom. His face didn't give any sign of emotion but if you look closer, his eyes showed many swirling emotion, the corners of his mouth is slightly tugged down and his brows furrowed slightly.

Kiyotaka was to speak but he doesn't know what to say. He always felt that this classmate of his is like Kiyoshi but he didn't want to believe it, since he saw with his own eyes that his beloved twin died in his arms while he only hugged him helplessly.

He kept seeing his twin on Kiyoshi, every single thing about him reminded him of his twin. So much that it hurts him but also made him happy. He didn't confront him about it, thinking that he was just delusional and hoping for nothing. However when he saw his reaction when he combed through his hair, proved him that he was hoping for something.

His Kiyoshi always calms down and relaxes whenever he combs through his hair. He figured that since this classmate of his is tired, then he will act as himself, with no masks or facades. So seeing his reaction told him that he subconsciously trusts him and knows his touch.

Then seeing Kiyoshi panic, hurts him. He wondered what mad him react like that but remembering his overthinking issues and sensitive feeling, gave him the conclusion that Kiyoshi must have thought that he will hate him, but he truly isn't well only if it comes to him.

"Kiyoshi..." Kiyotaka started, his voice trembled slightly because of many emotions swirling inside of him, wanting to be expressed openly to Kiyoshi. Unknowingly his hands clenched and he knocked on the door of the stall.

However when he knocked, he heard an audible sob followed by haggard breathing and almost silent crying. He panicked and he immediately called out to Kiyoshi, who he knew is panicking.

"Kiyoshi. I'm not mad. Please open up" He spoke tremblingly, while hind hands gripped tightly on the door knob. However he received no response except for gasps of air and mumbling. His stoic expression broke as he frowned before looking for something to open the door or at least get in the stall.

He went inside a stall beside Kiyoshi's and climbed on the closed toilet and jumped up to the wall separating the stalls, landing in the stall where Kiyoshi is in. And what he saw broke him. Kiyoshi, who was out of it, gripped tightly onto his arms to the point of it bleeding. His eyes puffy and out of focus while his whole body trembled.

Kiyotaka wasted no time bringing him into his arms and hugged him comfortingly. He swayed their bodies tightly, ignoring Kiyoshi's struggles to get out of his hold. He kept whispering comforting words on Kiyoshi's ear, while keeping his own emotions to himself, wanting to comfort his bwloved first.

Soon Kiyoshi stopped struggling and soon he fell asleep in his arms. Kiyotaka who saw this decided to carried him bridal style towards the nurses office, knowing that without their excuse slip they wouldn't be able to go back to their dorms.

As soon as they got there, he was greeted by a nurse, who was tending to other students. The nurse saw him and made him wait on one of the beds available. He laid Kiyoshi down but he sat beside him and held his hand, a gesture to show Kiyoshi that he was still beside him. Soon the nurse went to them and asked him what happened.

"My classmate had a panic attack and he just needed a rest but I think his dorm is a better place for him to rest and a companion. Since I was the one who was able to call him down" Kiyotaka told the nurse who nodded after a few seconds of thinking. She then gave Kiyotaka a excuse slip for the both of them.

Kiyotaka then took off his school jacket and wrapped it around Kiyoshi's smaller figure, before slowly taking his hand out of Kiyoshi's hold. After the successful attempt, he went out towards their classroom and when he got there, class had already started and so he gave the slip to the teacher.

After that, he gave the slips to Yosuke Hirata, who was the most trusting student and he accepted the slips immediately after knowing Kiyoshi's situation. Then Kiyotaka grabbed both of their bags, ignoring the look given by Horikita and sped walk back to the nurse's office.

As he got there, he saw Kiyoshi who was still asleep but now he was frowning and crying. He also notice that the nurse wasn't inside. He frowned before going beside Kiyoshi and calming him down by combing Kiyoshi's hair with his hands and kissed his forehead.

After Kiyoshi calmed down, he immediately carried him bridal style, with their bags placed behind him. It was heavy but nothing he can't handle. He sped walk toward his dorm. Thankfully the halls were empty since the class had began.

When he got inside his dorm, he immediately placed Kiyoshi down on his bed and removed Kiyoshi's shoes and socks. He then put down their bag and changed both Kiyoshi and himself to comfortable clothes.

During changing Kiyoshi, he noticed many things. He noticed how slim yet muscular Kiyoshi is, Kiyoshi's chest is has a slight bump, making his hand twitch at the urge to squeeze it. He shook his thoughts away and continued undressing Kiyoshi, and Kiyoshi's slim and unblemished legs came into view making him gulp.

He immediately undressed Kiyoshi, and changed him into one of his own clothes. A white shirt that looked big on Kiyoshi and since he doesn't have any shorts that fit Kiyoshi, he decided to leave him in his boxers. He tucked Kiyoshi under the blankets before going to the bathroom to take a very long and cold shower.

'sh*t....I need to calm down'

— April 10 2026 [3:41 pm]

Kiyoshi squirmed under the warm and comfortable blanket and opened his eyes. He sat up and yawned but he suddenly remembered what happened, and he began panicking again, however he was played down by a hand.

He yelped at the sudden action, he immediately turned to the side and saw Kiyotaka who seemed like he woke up. Kiyotaka who saw the stunned Kiyoshi, smiled slightly and kissed Kiyoshi's forehead before hugging him.

"Feeling better now, bunny?" Kiyotaka asked Kiyoshi began crying, making Kiyotaka panic again. Kiyotka sat up and put Kiyoshi on his lap and cuddled him. He kept reassuring Kiyoshi who slowly calmed down again but this time he didnt pass out. He just sat there processing everything and Kiyotaka gave him time to do that.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I left you in there. I'm sorry I didnt come to you sooner. I was scared that you'll hate me. At first I thought I could handle you hating me but when the nightmares got frequent I lost more confidence and- and..." Kiyoshi stpped talking as he tried to stop the sob that was about to come out of his mouth.

Kiyotaka hummed and listened. However when he heard Kiyoshi about to cry again. he hushed Kiyoshi by kissing him on the lips. This action both surpised and flustered Kiyoshi. He attempted to pull away but the kiss kept going and Kiyotaka's hand that's on his hips moved up to his waist underneath the shirt.

Kiyoshi stopped struggling and enjoyed the kiss they both shared and longed for many years. He whimpered and squirmed as Kiyotaka's hands caressed his bare waist. He then gasped as Kiyotaka's hand began laying with his right nipple.

Kiyotaka pushed his tongue inside Kiyoshi's small mouth and began playing with Kiyoshi's tongue, making him moan. Unknowingly, Kiyoshi began grinding on Kiyotaka's lap however this action was noticed by Kiyotaka who began to get slightly aggressive on the kiss.

Moans and whimpers filled the silent room. Soon Kiyoshi ended up lying on the bed, his shirt lifted up showing his perky nipples that Kiyotaka didn't hesitate to suck on and pinch. Kiyoshi gripped the bedsheets as he tried covering his moans with his other hand.

Kiyotaka saw what he's doing and he didn't like it. He stopped what he's doing and held both of Kiyoshi's hand above his head before going back to sucking on his nipples and pinching them.

"N-nii-san~! Don't suck~....t-too much~ it's going to get swol–AH!" Kiyoshi yelled and came inside his boxers, after Kiyotaka bit down on his nipple. However Kiyotaka didn't stop there, he did the same treatment on the other nipple making Kiyoshi cum again.

Kiyotaka then let go of Kiyoshi's wrists as he began trailing kisses from his chest towards his abdomen and to his clothed hardened member. Kiyoshi who saw this, blushed and immediately tries to push Kiyotaka away.

"W-wait n-nii-san!! T-that's–ahh~" Kiyoshi moaned as he felt the cold air hit his member. His whole body twitched and trembled when Kiyotaka kissed and sucked the tip. Kiyoshi moaned and subconsciously bucked his hips but Kiyotaka held him down before sucking further down.

Kiyoshi moaned in pleasure while Kiyotaka watched Kiyoshi's reactions to what he's doing. And seeing it makes him both delighted and relieved. Since he only learned this from reading books and sometimes watching something from their internet.

Soon Kiyotaka felt Kiyoshi's member twitch inside his mouth, making him suck harder while his hands reached for Kiyoshi's nipples and began playing with them. And as expected Kiyoshi came with a loud whine and his whole body spasmed.

Kiyoatak's took out Kiyoshi's member from his mouth and swallowed his cum. He was expecting it to be bitter like what the internet says but surprisingly it tastes sweet and intoxicating. His body craved more but when he saw how tired Kiyoshi is, he stopped.

Kiyoshi whined and made grabby hands towards Kiyotaka who chuckled at the adorable gesture. He smiled and hugged back, unexpectedly Kiyoshi kissed Kiyotaka. He kissed back while removing Kiyoshi's boxers intending to change it.

"hng!! Too tired, nii-san~" Kiyoshi whimpered making Kiyotaka kiss Kiyoshi's forehead before pulling away and putting Kiyoshi's boxers in his laundry and tried looking for something in exchange but found nothing.

He then went to Kiyoshi's pants pocket and grabbed Kiyoshi's keycard. However when he was about to go outside, he heard Kiyoshi whining his name and begging him to sleep with him.

Kiyotaka decided to lay down and get Kiyoshi a new set of clothes when he fell asleep. He hugged Kiyoshi and it was reciprocated. Kiyoshi smiled and mumbled something that Kiyotaka didn't hear. So he asked Kiyoshi what he said.

"I'm just happy. Although I still don't feel I have the right to be with you after hurting you with my death. All of this is still unbelievable, like a dream" Kiyoshi muttered with a sad smile, this made Kiyotaka frown before holding Kiyoshi's face gently.

"It's not a dream, Kiyoshi. It's real. I'm real. Yes it did hurt when you died but for me all that matters is you're here now, beside me, alive and breathing. That's all that matters to me, love" Kiyotaka said seriously, however the tip of his ears and nape is flushed. Kiyoshi smiled softly and hummed before hugging Kiyotaka tightly.

"I'm sorry again, Taka-nii. I love you" Kiyoshi said before closing his sleepy eyes. Seeing this, Kiyotaka began caressing Kiyoshi's hair and back in a comforting pace.

"It's okay, Kiyoshi. I forgive you"

'I love you too, Kiyoshi. With all my heart. This time I won't let you go. No matter what, even after death'

°°° 𝐓𝐁𝐂 °°°

ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛs ɪᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 5!! ʜᴏᴡ ɪs ɪᴛ? ᴅɪᴅ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʀᴇᴜɴɪᴏɴ sᴄᴇɴᴇs ʀᴇᴀᴄʜᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴs?

ɪ ʀᴇᴡʀᴏᴛᴇ ᴛʜɪs ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 4 ᴛɪᴍᴇs, ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴀʟsᴏ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ sᴏᴍᴇ sᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ᴡᴏʀᴋ sᴏ ɪ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴜɴᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢʟʏ ᴅᴏᴡɴɢʀᴀᴅᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ǫᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ɪ ғᴇʟᴛ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟʟʏ ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ.

ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏs ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ʙᴏᴏᴋ sᴏ ғᴀʀ? ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɪ'ʟʟ ᴀʟsᴏ ᴛʀʏ sᴏᴍᴇ sᴘᴇᴄɪᴀʟ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀs ᴀɴᴅ ᴇxᴛʀᴀ/ʙᴏɴᴜs sᴄᴇɴᴇs ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ

ᴏʜ ᴍʏ ɢᴏsʜ!! ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ᴋɪɴᴅ ᴏғ sᴄᴇɴᴇs ɪs ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴇᴀsɪᴇʀ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ɪᴛ sɪɴᴄᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ᴇᴍʙᴀʀʀᴀssᴇᴅ!!

ᴀʟsᴏ ɪ ᴀᴅᴅᴇᴅ ᴀ ɴᴇᴡ ᴛᴀɢ. ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇɢɪɴɴɪɴɢ ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ɪғ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴍᴘʀᴇɢ ᴏʀ ɴᴏᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ ɪғ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴘᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. sᴏ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ɪ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴍᴘʀᴇɢ.

sᴏ ʏᴇᴀʜ...ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴛʜᴀᴛ.

ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏs sᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇxᴛ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ. ᴡᴇʟʟ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ sᴛɪʟʟ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇ ᴏɴ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ (ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴅᴏ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ғᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ o(╥﹏╥)o )